Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

Oops! Your happiness is running away. Every time I take deep sigh my colleague say this way. But when I'm in a great tension, it is inevitable. "I sighed. My happiness is running away. But the way is being blocked."

I have many traits. I have some weak points. I want to say I have some strong points, but, normal people are stronger in that points, and I'll be ashamed, so I become modest and timid to call them "less-weak point".

I post articles every day in my Japanese blog, but here I hesitate. I wanted to write proper things although English is not my native language and the proficiency isn't as good as that of Japanese. It's natural I can't write something better than what I write in Japanese. On the other hand, in my Japanese blog, I post anything trivial, and have succeeded in posting every day. I hope I can do also here.

They say 2010 is the year of tiger so I draw a car look like tiger. I will live my life one by one. I hope I can blog post at least once a month anywhere I can post an entry in English. I hope I can begin every my post with positive thought and then my real feeling follows. I think this will make my blog brighter than what I feel when I'm depressed.

These days I've been exhausted with the pressure and the unprecedented amount of communication in English for me in forums I'm in. And I was too busy to communicate online to communicate with God by reading Bible and praying. I shouldn't forget what has given me the motivation of service leadership and join in a course of this. This program has participants of wide range of nationalities and religions, so I thought it's discreet to pick up particular religion, maybe one I belong to or one another member does. But I just noticed that ignoring what originally has given me motivation makes me empty, so I set here the place to write about my faith. The story of (Green Eyed) Clunker I made up was originally narrated as a metaphor of God's creation who may have great power, but can't decide their direction unless they aren't connected to another appropriate creation. But I think I must tell it later, to the point, rather than reserving.

I started this blog with my eyes green (I'd like to explain why later.). Now I have several opportunities to communicate in English now it's time I gave up my green-eyes. -Now just a clunker-

I started this blog to practice English communication on a blog, by writing something interesting or about me regularly. To this purpose, I have found some places to communicate in English. I'm now thinking how I use this blog as a tool of English communication. Can I use it as a shelter to the negative feelings while I'm making encouraging comments in online English-speaking community I belong in.