Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

On year-end holidays, I play Touhou Project games, mainly normal level. There are higher levels and I do play the "Lunatic" (highest) level in a few games, including the 7th, Perfect Cherry blossom, but in most of these games, normal level is just for me to enjoy "reading, dodging bullets, and shooting".

Like yesterday, we had snow on the road in front of entrance. When I got up, the snow fell even stronger. I plowed the snow. It was less than 5cm, but still a little bit tiring. I also worried about the place of the snow plowed.

This is my first private skiing for this season. There was 40-60 cm snowfall on the mountain. The snow seemed powdery, but was rather heavy, so heavy that I was once stuck when I was skiing down a slope. At first I was reluctant, because it was cold outside, but once I skied, I was into skiing, and was looking forward the next time, probably the first weekend of the new year.

Today I scanned recent receipts and other documents which I don't need to keep at hand, but I might review some time. Getting rid of paper at hand is one of major parts of cleaning my room.

It's already been snowing and roads are getting covered with snow. I had thought that I could jog tonight, but looks like no jogging for tonight.

Already been burnt out. A setting where young adults with developmental disorders shouldn't taken for granted. This is the impression when I come back from the meeting of young adults with developmental disorders.

Yesterday I sang Christmas carols without being annoyed with hypersensitivity to sound. On regular Sundays, I seldom sing songs without annoyed with hypersensitivity.

One hope for Christmas is spending it free from trouble and cold.

Next motivation, next target...... studying deeper about web page design? Brushing up my powerpoint presentation? Studying more about database? I'd like to be taking some actions linked to enhance my information technology skills, by the beginning of the next year.

Typically at this time of the year I go skiing for the first time in the season. This year I have no plan to go for this weekend, but likely to be the next Saturday, almost the end of year. I delay my first (free) skiing for this season, partly because of financial reason, and partly because relatively warmer weather for this season. It's not that I'm not motivated. It's not because it hasn't been open yet. According to the official site of Spring Valley Izumikogen Skiing Area main courses has already been open. Now I'm more motivated for jogging and swimming. Especially as for jogging, without snow on the roads, unusual for this time for the year, I'm able to jog, without worrying about slippery roads. This is good preparation for Sendai International Half Marathon, a race 5 months later, after skiing season.

No idea further than writing something, at least two or three words here every day, without missing for more than 3 years, if my memory serves. This itself may be not a small achievement, but I'm thinking that it's time to think and focus on what to write. One of difference in this year from years before is, my writing has gotten simpler. This linked to the attitude I told some time before in this year, "more trivial posts, more frequently". This change also may look trivial, but this is giving me one important awareness. This is the idea that "I don't know many words which stand for daily, simple, easy, or most likely to see and feel.

My jogging plan for tonight: 4.4km, wash room, 3.3km, 3.3km. It's fortunate that the roads are not frozen, in this time of the year. It's a bit too windy, so I want to be careful if it won't cause my body heat losing.

Day: Stress_Degree Sat.:   9 (out of 10) Training session for skiing instructors, 2 meltdowns. I barely kept myself safe. Sun.:  7  The second day of the training session. 1 meltdown. Relieved after I got home. Mon.:  5  Went to work, one night sleep was too short to recover from stress. I worked through. Tue.:  4  Stress still remaining. Having finished meeting handout, my heart got slightly lighter. Wed.:  4  Meeting done. It'll take a few days for me to relax. I wonder how much I was tense then.  I hope the thermometer will indicate lower than 3 on Thursday and Friday. Description of stress (thermometer) degrees 10: Very Dangerous, serious meltdown: I often scream loud, jump up and down. I have really hard time with keeping other people and myself safe. 9: Similar panicky behavior to 10 degrees. I have minimum self control to keep other people and myself safe. 8: Milder panic than those two above, like losing word or u...

The stress of the last weekend turning out to be much tougher on me, than I had expected on Sunday. I sometimes blame myself for my behavior and attitude, affecting productivity, and even almost made me forget about my hobby. This was a really serious problem, especially writing a blog post.

After all, I still like skiing, even though I rebuke myself as unfit for an instructor, after my meltdowns as an adult with autistic spectrum disorder, in the regional training session for skiing instructors. The problem was I was then incapable of asking for help, although I'm gradually learning in environment in which are people I know somehow and I can ask for help. I was capable of speak, but had no one I think I can talk to. The only thing I could do was yelling to myself, sometimes sitting on the snow, losing power. I'm "partially" capable of communicating, but unfortunately, on last weekend, I ended up in showing the side, incapable of communicating. Later I'm asking myself, what was the motivation I drove when I wanted to be an instructor? When I began to learn skiing seriously 15 years ago, few instructor's lesson reached me, because I had really bad motor skill. More exactly, I easily misunderstood the word of them when I was told to a particular...

Today's skiing training, there is not much to say. After a lot of panic after all the schedule ended and I'm home. I don't really want to remember. I'm doubting if I don't look forward to skiing so enthusiastically as years before.

To be honest I don't want think much about skiing for now. During today's lesson I even thought that this might be the first and the last skiing in the season, even though I was physically O.K. but giving up this season for mental reason. I was almost mental wreck then, and I was also afraid of heart attack, overload from panicky behavior and skiing itself. Fortunately now I'm home and still physically O.K. and my heart is getting settled. I have time to calm down.

Today was paid holiday, and had 2 clinic visits, blood pressure and mental health. I left home almost the same time as the days I work, and arrived at the first clinic 20 minutes before its opening. About 5 people were already waiting. In my previous visit I arrive at the clinic just the time it opens, and I had to wait one and a half hour. Today I waited less than an hour. Arriving at the first hospital 30 minutes it begins may be a good idea, for me, especially when I have to visit 2 clinics in the morning, taking advantage of a half paid holiday.

Finished successfully! My presentation about Abilympics, a job skills contest, having been planned for this afternoon. I spoke in front of the audience of more than ten members, having prepared PowerPoint slideshow with a few animations. I sometimes showed the real screen, the browser window which displays my work of web pages, having taken a lecture of giving a presentation with a projector one day before. I made it thanks to many helps. The arrangement, instruction of PowerPoint slideshow and how to use a projector, and so on.

4 round-trip joggings from home to the next nearest station. This is I want to do days before I run a half marathon. The distance from home to the station is almost 3 kilometers, so 4 round-trips will make almost 24 kilometers. Today I'm trying 1 round-trip jogging.

Filling the gap between being tired and being sleepy is difficult. It's probably because my tiredness is mainly mental, and I have to get equally tired physically. This is one reason why I like to jog at night.

I should have planned more carefully. I'm to do two new things to do at work for this week. I took up one of them in the afternoon. I had thought I had so much time that I could spend plenty of time on the other, including a presentation, but it took me much longer time to finish the first one than I had expected. Then I find I didn't have much time left to brush up my presentation, the other new thing I'm going to do in this week. When I begin new things, especially more than one, I should schedule much more carefully.

First snow for this winter in Sendai this weekend. The snow on the road melted soon, but in the late afternoon, temperature getting lower and some roads, especially one in front of the station remaining wet, they are getting frozen and slippery. I'm thinking it's time to get snow (jogging and business) shoes.

Today I swam, keeping in mind only swimming long, without looking at pace clock. This week so far, I couldn't exercise as much as I wanted to, due to schedule and bad weather, so I was thinking that distance was important, rather than seeking max speed and faster pace.

Today I'm going to go to dinner with colleagues. It will be the first experience. I was in charge of designing the label of the bottle. I'm going to return so late for me (10p.m.) that I'm worried if I have good sleep for Saturday.

Abilympic presentation coming up next week. There has been a plan, since I was preparing for the national competition, but today it's been scheduled, deciding the date, time and listeners. It's a good opportunity to tell how employees with disabilities work hard to acquire their vocational skills, and help listeners recognize as workforce, teammates, and colleagues.

I need calming down, taking walk, before I take bath. I haven't taken good sleep since last weekend, and the desire for exercise has been much declined. I hope I recall the pleasure of jogging by going outside, although it is getting colder and colder, as winter gets deeper and deeper.

I'm so tired that I don't feel like going out for jogging after supper. Just going out for a few minute will be helpful to continue my habit. Continuing the habit of exercise, I feel over and over again, is so difficult.

I purchased a sub woofer Fostex PM-Submini2. Last Sunday I found a used one on sales. I thought for a while, because the condition shown by the seller was C rank. I know I'm not seeking for excellent appearance, because it would soon get to look like worn out in my messy room use. On Monday the product arrived. I connected and decided the temporary place for it to work. It was unexpectedly powerful, feeling as if I was listening from 2 or 3 sizes larger audio system, from a 4-kg sub woofer in addition to 8cm full range stereo system. I'm planning for cleaning up my room to make the space more suitable to play better sound.

Today I took lectures of skiing. There were several interesting topics like teaching how to live better with snow, and meeting increasing demand for skiing services from Chinese visitors. I was surprised that how little Tohoku (northeast area of Japan, except for Hokkaido) is known, even by foreigners who are thinking of visiting Japan.

Today's swimming: warming up: about 1km  latter half: with the pace 65s/50m i.e. 10'50 for 500m 100m individual medley: 1m53s 50m breaststroke: 58s 50m freestyle: 48s 200m freestyle: 3m58s (198bpm right after finishing) Today's training was around noon, from 12:15p.m to 14p.m., while regularly I go swimming from 3p.m. to 5p.m. I have a schedule of dinner with my friends. Tomorrow, I will miss swimming, because I have to take a lecture of skiing, and it will take all day.

6min/km pace run: Last night 3km, this morning 4km. My jogging this morning was a bit over pace, 22min for 4km. I learn distances of every section and adjust my pace by counting steps, but looks like I sometime fail to count.

I'm thinking that this December will be the month for me to focus on cleaning my room, instead of learning something new, just as I was learning web programing and Photoshop in this summer.

I had been worried before meeting with comrades, but finally I enjoyed conversation with them. I was so excited that I'm not sure I sleep well tonight.

Before VIA Christmas Blend is sold out, I got a new package. The stock on the shelf has been already few, although there are still almost a month before Christmas.

I'm thinking of purchasing PS4 by next spring. I want to play new Atelier Series games in recent years. On Saturday I found an used one on sale, more reasonable than I had expected, but I thought twice. I'm thinking that I would buy after my saving reaches a certain amount. By the way, I have found out one problem with the sound of PS4. After I returned home on that day, I looked up further about PS4, video and audio output. I learned that video and audio output is typically integrated into HDMI interface, and PS4 doesn't have analog audio output, so if I connect my PS4 with my TV, I have no choice but use the speaker of my TV, unless I don't separate audio output. Then I looked up further. Looks like I can also use USB audio and digital audio output. Thinking of using USB audio, on Sunday, I bid for a USB DAC but I lost. I'm now thinking I can also try digital (optical) audio output. Well I have at least 3 months before I buy my PS4, so I don't have t...

I swam 50 meter backstroke within 1 minute today for the first time. I'm not good at backstroke. Last year my best time was 1'08 for 50 meter. I had already been able to swim in 1 minutes in breaststroke, let alone freestyle and butterfly. In recent 2 years, I have been to able to swim the back stroke slow and long, but didn't know how to swim fast. In this weekend I practiced the kick and my time was getting shorter and shorter. Today's swim Warm up: 500m freestyle 50m Freestyle: 47 seconds 50m Backstroke: 58 seconds. 50m Breaststroke: 56seconds (I have been almost hurt my hip, due to hardworking).

Today the notification that my disability certificate will be extended. I'm greatly relieved, because it would be going to expire on the end of November if the notification didn't arrive, and I would be unable to use the benefit that I can use city indoor swimming pool for free next Saturday. As for this Saturday, I went swimming as usual, after I came home from two clinic visits. I had started 8:30 p.m. and the time I returned was 2:00 p.m. I started for swimming at 3:20 p.m. At first I felt a bit tired, but I managed to swim 1km anyway. Then I dashed in breaststroke and backstroke 50m each, and much faster than last week. Breaststroke: 55s/50m Backstroke: 1'02s/50m Also I intensively practiced the kick of four strokes. I didn't freestyle and butterfly so seriously, but swam at slower and more comfortable pace.

Today is Labor Thanksgiving Day, a national holiday in Japan. I suffered headache almost all the day. Probably I have been tired, a bit overwhelmed by tasks, including editing images. This week and the next week, I have lots of tasks at work, so I was even thinking that the holiday could be a stumbling block.

I'm already making plans to participate in road races in next spring. Some races held in March and April have already accepting entries. Also, as for Sendai International Half Marathon, its registration will begin in the beginning of December. In the previous race, the registration began in the middle of January, so it's more than one month earlier than usual. A popular race as it is, registration will be closed in less than an hour from the time it begins, reaching the limit.

Yesterday I jogged 8.6km in 1 hour 10 minutes. Today I plan to run 3km with the pace 6 minutes per kilometer. Preparation is almost the same as yesterday, but I have to finish by 7:30 p.m. today.

If I want to LSD (Long Slow Distance) jogging after supper, that is, jogging slowly after supper and return before 8:30 p.m. I have to prepare before supper, changing clothes almost ready to run, preparing my jacket, cap, and gloves at my reach, without wasting time after supper.

What would I tell about Abylimpics to my colleagues, if I only had an hour to prepare my presentation handout? I would tell that it is a vocational skill contests for people with disabilities. Competitions are done in about 20 disciplines, including building cleaning, waiter/waitress, office assistance, data entry, database, and web page creating (homepage). Next I would roughly explain that I usually participate in the homepage contest, and what is important to win the race in the prefectural competition and the national competition.

The swimming pool I go on Sundays will be closed from next January until the end of March due to repair of water purification tanks. I need to go to another pool if want to swim in that period. Today I visited another pool which is the second nearest from home. With 15 minutes from the nearest station, the location is relatively convenient to me, but I have to walk through a city cemetery to get there. Although I don't believe in horrors, the path doesn't seem to have lights along it so it's not good idea to walk there after dark. Besides, in winter time, when snow falls, I'm not sure if snow is removed from the path.

I went swimming in the afternoon. It took 3 weeks before I get back my Saturday routine swimming, busy with abilympics in the beginning of November and 10km road race last Sunday. First I swam 1 kilometer slowly, checking my form and the touch of water. Then I measured my time of 50 meters in different styles. Butterfly: 52 seconds Breast Stroke: 57 seconds Backstroke: 1m08s And I swam 200 meter in freestyle in 3m57s My next goal is swimming 200m individual medley in 3m40s, and I'm thinking it takes time to learn how to swim faster. First keeping on swimming long regularly.

The first half of November has already passed. I'm surprised how fast time flies, somehow coping with my occasional low spirit and bad temper.

13 stair flights up and down taking advantage of intermissions during work. My legs hasn't been full recovered, but at least I don't have to worry about taking stairs down.

10 days passed since Abilympics, and I have been released from pressure and tension, but I don't have enough sleep. These days I go to sleep later than 10 p.m. which is a bit later than I think the best time. Sleeping earlier I think is the key to recover from kind of burnout.

Today, after 2 days after the 10km road race, I walked even more slower than yesterday. I'm disappointed that my leg are so slow to recover, but maybe in a day or two, I would be able to walk at a normal pace. I feel pain in my leg from tiredness, but I'm not thinking that they are really hurt.

The next day of 10km road race. I walk half the speed as I usually do. Especially I have hard time with taking stairs down, rather than up.

I replaced my goggle lens. I have ordered a third party spare lens for my Oakley A-Frame 1.0. This was a good choice for me, because the current lens was already damaged, and my budget was quite limited. I hadn't cared much about the color of the lens as long as it meet my purpose, but as a result, the color of the item that has just arrived (right) was almost exactly the same as my old damaged one (left). I eager to see how my new lens works when I'm actually skiing.

Tomorrow I attend a 10 kilometer road race. My legs have been already tired because today on Saturday I washed my ski wear with my feet.

Next goal after abylimpics. Reviewing the results, in technical parts is a little bit tough now. It take some time to reap the fruits, the knowledge I obtained through the preparation of the competition.

The train bound for home is the last barrier, when I managed to finish my work of the day, but energy has already been running out.

I restarted playing Final Fantasy 7. The last play was a half year ago.

Tomorrow I'll come back to regular work. Today I'm taking 1-day off after the competition travel. I went to the pool and swam for the first time in 2 week. Right after I finished I was really tired, and I spontaneously smiled. I couldn't really smile during the competition travel, in spite of the fact that it was a really rare opportunity to go to Okinawa, southernmost part of Japan, from my Tohoku area, namely north east of Japan.

Abylinpics in Okinawa: I couldn't bring any prize home. I wish I could. My lack of strategies, efficiency, design sense, and real commitment seem to the problems. Certainly did I do my best, but I doubt all my efforts were focused on winning the race.

The competition is over. I burnt out, and my work wasn’t very good. I should have made more maintainable codes and file components. This is from my lack of competence, efficiency of coding and other parts of my daily work.

The test page worked on the environment of the competition. I was greatly relieved, but the real competition comes tomorrow.

Abilympics, vocational skills contests for people with disabilities, being held in Naha, Okinawa. Today the opening ceremony was held. Tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow there will be competitions of more than 20 discipline. I will participate in the homepage contest. My turn will be the day after tomorrow, and tomorrow afternoon I will go to the venue and set up the the PC I use on the day of the competition.

Now I finally got to Okinawa. At least I’m going to set myself to the start line.

Today, I finished the coding of my preparation work for the contest. Tomorrow, I will leave for Okinawa. This will be 5 hour flight. I'm too stuck with my coding to be scared. I'm preparing for travel now, and then I prepare for the disc I have to hand in before the contest starts.

I also have to prepare for my travel to the venue. If I wouldn't I would not able to even participate in the competition.

At least I'm continuing on my work. This is more important than the contest. Continuing on work after the contest is the priority, whatever the result of the contest. I will get the result a week later.

The time I can use to brush up my preparation work for the contest has been running out. Now I have to hand in my preparation work as is, with minimum modification to meet the minimum requirement.

Wasted time for pretending to be cool, in vain, I'm not really so at all - Being myself, just communicating my experiences as specific and as visual as possible. This perhaps is becoming the message I'm going to tell on my contest homepage. I'm working on the real competition less than a week later. There's no help in worrying. Doing needed actions one by one will help me prepare for the contest and the travel, and calming down my anxiety.

This weekend is the time to prepare for the contest, but more for my travel than my work. As for my work I have to finish my work to meet the minimum requirements for the contest.

All my resources is spent of making up a photo slide show, for a skills contest in Okinawa in the beginning of November. There are expected to be a few more tasks on the day of competition. My preparation for these task is about 50 %. I try hard to meet more requirements.

Going out for a walk? Editing a few icons? Looking up some web programing functions? While delaying my decision, night is getting deeper and deeper, getting too late for any of them.

One more step further? Perhaps in the next morning. For now even coming up with one word is not so easy for me. It's not until now that I have noticed that I have been so stuck and so tired.

Having my hands so full that it's hard to decide what to do next. My thought doesn't look like so clear. Pace down, lowering the requirement for my work, which is actually of lower priority in my real life, real work.

Already only few days available left for the contest. The progress of my preparation work is 20-30 percent. Now I'm adjusting layouts for smartphones. I checked on my iPod Touch, and struggled with its resolution feature. Looks like its viewport width is calculated as 980 pixels, although it looks so narrow, perhaps narrower than a fifth of my laptop's same resolution.

I'm making the requirement list for the homepage contest. According to this I have only fulfilled less than 30 percent of the minimum requirement.

In order to prepare for the contest, I updated my xampp setting. A problem happened. I uninstalled the old version without taking backup of my databases, just taking copy of entire xampp file. When I ran the new version, of course, I lost my databases. Just copying my old data files isn't enough. I got the error message "doesn't exist in engine". I additionally copied several config files, and even worse, mySQL wouldn't start any more. I repeated uninstall, re-install, and copying suspicious file, but I couldn't solve the problem. Finally I copied back to the working folder the entire copy of my old environment, and executed the old version. This time, I at least took backups of my databases through phpMyAdmin. Now I'm installing the up-to-date xampp, with php 7.2, and if I succeed in restoring the backup, all my problem will be solved, at cost of the entire time I can use a day for my homepage building.

I have only 2 weeks before the contest. I have to create a web page prior to the contest. Now I'm choosing photos to show on the page. Participants have to prepare at least 10 photos, and on each photo there has to be a copyright notation. Now I'm just looking fore rough appearance of the page, but the piece of copyright description will have to be done in a few days. I also have to prepare for travel at least a week before I start, so the time I can spent on the web page is pretty shorter than calendar appears to be.

The major programing part of my slide show for the competition has been done. The design part is the problem. To make matters worse, I have hardly any specific idea of what massage I want to communicate, while I like to learn specifics about computer architectures and programing languages.

My pace is getting slower these days. Jogging and programming, learning of apps helpful for web page creating.

On Sunday, my progress of learning of Photoshop was amazing. I was almost finishing the text book. But today on Monday ....... my learning pace is sharply declining.

5 a.m. it's still dark in an early mid-October morning, unlike that time in the summer. I often take a walk this time of the day, relieving shortage of exercises. Sometimes a canned-coffee is a motivation and a reward. Then I begin my early work, these days learning operations of Photoshop, and codes of web programing.

Keeping on taking notes of smallest idea brings me finally to a great improvement. Just recently I'm changing my stance on this blog. This blog stays blog of trivial things, daily update , and may get even more trivial to most of you, but I'm writing trivial ideas as many as possible at least meaningful to me. I'm changing mind, because I'm thinking, "I have been helped by my past blog entry so many times.". For example information about what I was doing at this time of the year of a few years ago help me decide when to begin a new action for some pieces of my schedule.

Photoshop practice => preparing for work and breakfast => Web programing status I think a new idea of task scheduling. I want to change the idea of scheduling, because I sometimes in a hurry near the time I need to prepare fore the next item of my schedule.

Still I have a lot to learn, HTML, CSS, JavaScript, PHP, SQL, and PhotoShop, for the competition 3 weeks later. Keeping myself in shape, however, is even more important. If I can't travel to the venue, I can't even stand the start line of the competition.

These days I'm struggling with PHP programing with MySQL. Almost every time I try test a code, I'm trapped by errors: parse errors, type errors, SQL syntax errors, and pointing at nonexistent databases or database fields.

I have waited for a week before I edit my first sample photo of textbook. Before I begin, I have had to learn several pieces of basics. It's likely I will be able to begin this evening, after Windows update for this month.

Shichigahama town (8:50 A.M.),  and, Shiogama Fish Wholesale market (10:50 A.M.) I spent shores on Shichigahama so long a time, taking photographs, and it was almost 11 A.M. that I arrived at the market, 2 hours later than planned.

Today's learning  - Learning basics of SQL through PHPMyAdmin My Mistakes and Lessons in Today's Learning  1. Have I really added a column on my database table, as well as my data contents CSV?  - import failure with a message "Invalid column count in CSV input on line 1"  (Solved by the following StackOverflow entry php - Invalid column count in CSV input on line 1 Error - Stack Overflow )   I made a table, then made its contents data by CSV format, and attempted to import the CSV.   At first I succeeded, but when I added a column onto the CSV, delete all data from the SQL table, and tried to import modified CSV data again.  It wasn't successful with an error message "Invalid column count in CSV input on line 1".  It was because I had forgotten adding new column to the database as well as I had just done with the CSV data.

3 weeks left for the competition. I spent three fourth of the daytime on JavaScript, building the logic of my slideshow. With all this struggle, I managed to get all parameters under control, as far as I'm concerned. I especially struggled with defining methods of an object with its prototype and other methods. In the evening, I'm continue on my learning of PhotoShop with a text book. There are so many to learn basic operations that I haven't edited even the first sample picture.

My battle against JavaScript setTimeout function has been continuing since the competition of 2 years ago, where I struggled with that function. Again this time, I'm thinking that this function is indispensable in implementing the requirements. This time, I'm almost giving one answer to the problem, preparing the core logic of the functions. Next problem will be how I'll show the function with the view I give with html, css and resources like photos.

Learning PHP along a textbook, now I'm in the section of learning about SQL databases. Inputting sample data with SQL sentences one by one, or even with PHPMyAdmin, it is pretty tiring entering as few as four or five rows. Importing data with formats editable in Excel, for example csv, save me a lot of energy. A SQL database and Excel are different things, but taking advantage of Excel's handiness sometimes help me putting a lot of data in the database.

Another missing parts of my home page creating are processing photos and arranging colors. I'm getting basic textbooks about these subjects in a few days. Before taking up reading them, my learning of script parts, JavaScript and PHP, will have to be almost finished.

Jogging right after supper is unexpectedly difficult. I have to choose and change clothes fit to jog, check emails I received the day, doing tasks if there are associated with those emails, and desirably writing an entry if I haven't prepared yet, all between the time when I return and supper. If I miss a few things, I may take extra 30 minutes or even an hour before I start jogging.

After being frustrated with suspended, delayed, and crowded public transportation, due to a typhoon that passed near here this morning, having a rest, having a good night sleep is my first priority. I have planned continuing my study of web programming, but it will be after I sleep enough and my condition gets better.

Recently I'm studying JavaScript with a textbook with a title like "10 days JavaScript". It's the second time I learn this programing language along this book. The first time, 2 to 3 years ago, it actually took as slow as a month; my learning pace was so slow. This time it's likely I'm going to go through every lesson in days, literally. In addition to that, I understand almost every piece of code I'm learning, and rename some variables according to my coding style. In the first time, I almost only seeing, typing and checking if the codes really run. Still, it help me understanding the language, and reading other textbooks which explain in details.

This morning I went to Disney Artwork exhibition at Miyagi Prefecture Museum. Tomorrow the exhibition will end, so I was almost missing, but finally I enjoyed so much. I was especially interested in rough sketches of its early animations, and got motivated for me my self draw sketches even more.

One work day left for this month September. Submitting the time sheet and the report of counts of information I pick up by category every day are tasks for the end of the month. Avoiding extra work for attendance managements, I want no flaw on my time sheet.

Slow jogging is a good way to meditate and calm down when I'm upset. This is one of the reason I love it. Cycling and swimming have much the same effect, and even better if I have time and place to do them. Jogging is helpful especially after supper, because that period of the day is unsuitable to do those two of my favorite activities.

No time to lose, trying tens of sample code. Time is flying every time I type the codes, try and error. I'm reviewing PHP sample codes in a PHP textbook I found the most helpful when I started

Imagining what pictures to draw when I'm 50 and 60 years old will be important for my little dream of being an illustrator at the age of 70.

Today I went on cycling to Arahama, Watari , to take photos of sea. It was 100 kilometer ride there and back. Weather was blessed until I was home at 3:30 p.m., although weather forecast was saying I took most photos in Millennium Hope Hills in Iwanuma city . I learned a lot about recovery from disasters by 3.11 earthquake and tsunami. As a person living near Sendai, I can't think of the sea without thinking about that disasters even though, living in western inland areas near mountains, they, fortunately, didn't strike directly, and not so related to topics of disasters, recovery from them, and problems along the recovery. So I'm going to refer to the tsunami in some way, when I make web contents of the sea. My concept is likely to become an invitation and an encouragement for learning about many aspects about seas of Miyagi, Sendai is one part of it.

Fixing JavaScript codes is highly addictive. I spent more than 4 hours today, to fix the code of a slide show, about its timer events with the auto play function, adjustment of the width of slide frame and the offsets of slide contents, and re-calculation of its parts sizes when the window is resized.

I spent all the morning seeing doctors, one for blood pressure, and the other for mental health advice. I waited more than an hour, missed a bus, walked to the next station, and it was already noon when I received the medication for anxiety. In the afternoon, I had my hairs cut, shopped a few things, and then swam 2.6 kilometer. I missed one schedule, bring my skis to a tune-up shop.

I'm going to see a doctor for my high blood pressure tomorrow morning. My blood pressure tend to be especially high when I'm struggling for problems with web coding and programming, so it's not good for me to spend time even if I wake up early and have time to do so.

My biggest concern for this week, the monthly member meeting, has been over successfully. I feel my heart getting much lighter, but until then I have already spent most of my energy. After supper I jogged long, but with a really slow pace from the start to the end. I'm about to look up how long I jogged, but I feel so heavy that I haven't been taken up yet. Maybe right after I finish this post. 4.8 kilometers.

Handouts for the meeting tomorrow, I have finished. I've got over one critical point. Next comes speech I'm going to make. It gives me so much tension.

Today is much hotter than the rainy last week, but much cooler than this summer, with "dangerous" severe heat. The problem is my body's adjustment, for air conditioning feeling at one time cold, and another time not cold but I sweat a lot. I hope I won't catch a cold.

The main part of setting up my virtual web server with VirtualBox have been done, including FTP server and client setting. Now I'm typing codes of a PHP micro framework, with a textbook, and with the assistance from DreamWeaver CC. Code suggestions of DreamWeaver are so helpful. This is many professionals seem to like to use this design and development tool suite.

Setting up my second virtual web server on my laptop. I wanted to check if my programs run on PHP 5.x and 7.x, and I didn't want to change the configuration of my laptop. This is the reason I decided to install XAMPP on a Linux (CentOS6.9) virtual machine. In order to enable IP connection between my laptop and the virtual machine, I prepared an additional virtual network card with host only adapter. With this interface it connect to VirtualBox Host-Only Ethernet Adapter I had set up when setting up my first virtual web server on my laptop. The first network interface was left "NAT" to connect to the Internet in order to download the XAMPP installer. As for installing XAMPP on a Linux machine, I have hard time with find the download path of the installer suitable to 32bit version. In order to enable the access to the virtual server from a web browser, I have to set up SELinux and iptables. Iptables setup I had done in my first server setup, but didn't very well re...

There were several frustrating things recently, but one thing I want to remember is, I'm able to work, and have a place to work, which I had struggled to find for years since I was 30. Also, I'm healthy enough to swim, jog, and ride my bike. Enjoying is much better than worrying.

In a home page I have to prepare for the contest (Abilympics), require a slideshow with more than 10 photos is required. More than a photo must be photos of sea. The slideshow must have auto play function, next button on the right, prev button on the left, and stop button. I'm thinking of what contents I'm going to focus on. I'm not so familiar with the sea, having been grown up and living in inland areas. My experiences with the sea was always extraordinary, and even nearly exotic when I look back on them. Then the concept of my preparation homepage want to focus on extraordinary experiences with the sea on holidays, with articles with photos also appearing to the initial slideshow, describing my experiences and additional information which may be useful to those who want to have similar kind of holidays.

Taking advantage of paid holiday, I went to Sendai Umino-Mori Aquarium . The admission fee, 2,100yen for adults, is not cheap (I got 50% discount with a mental disability certificate and actually paid 1,050 yen), but there was many interesting exhibitions, and explanations specialized in the Sanriku sea.

Today is the day of Windows monthly update. As usual it will take more than an hour to update. This time I take supper and then go on jogging, and hope, after those, all update process will end and my laptop will be available again.

Both the schedule and the budgets are tight, for the coming 2 months, considering reference books, my business shoes renewal, and yearly payment for skiing association. Controlling my spending on coffee and lunch is one key.

In the last week of August I felt so tired that I decided to take a holiday on some day in the first half of September. I'm going to take one on this Thursday. When I asked for a paid holiday, my condition has gotten much better. Anyway, taking a day off or two definitely helps me in shape.

Details of specifications of Abilympic, homepage contest has been unveiled. The theme is sea. Competitors have to build a website about sea. The contents can be anything about sea - about an existing sea, and in the homepage there must be a slideshow with more than 10 photos, at least including one a viewer can see a sea. I'm not familiar with the sea, so the theme of the competition is a bit tough for me, but fortunately, I have some photos of sea I took in a train trip along Uetsu line and Sanriku sea.

My swimming pace: when I swim long, I swim 25 meter. in 35-45 seconds. If I swim with a pace of 37.5 seconds for 25 meters continuously, it follows that I swim 2,000 meters in 50 minutes. I have 2 hours for one session, including changing clothes, warming up and rests, at a pool I usually go. Then the maximum time I have for actually swimming is 1 hour and 30 minutes. 3,000 meters for a session, in an hour and a quarter is a milestone fro me.

No task between two is a tip for continuing walking after supper. I'm sometimes discouraged from starting for walking because a few task are left, writing an entry for a blog, checking emails, changing clothes and so on. Getting rid of these tasks and having been prepared for walking when I have supper helps me get motivated the most.

Walking habit after supper, writing today's entry, measuring my blood pressure ...... I'm so worried about what to do first that I waste 30 minutes beginning none of the above.

I saw blue sky for the first time in 10 days. It was after a typhoon passed my area. From the week before last, it was rainy and cloudy, and I seldom saw the sky in the period. This was fine day I had been looking for then. However there is one thing I was disappointed by. When I returned home after work it had already been dark outside. In August it was still light when I return home from work.

Today's mistake in an additional setting up on my test server. I made a new account for new test (study) site, and created a folder for web documents . Then I logged in as the user I had created, moved to the folder, and created an index page, with a command "touch index.html". Then "Permission Denied". I checked the mode of the directory with "ls -l". The directory was writable. I spent 30 minutes in vain attempts. Then I noticed that the owner of the directory I had made was "root", because it had been made by "root". I logged in with su, chown, and changed the ownership to the intended user. There are many stumbling blocks when setting up a test server.

Before I begin lessons of Dreamweaver, I set up a test server, a virtual machine of my PC. Setting up appropriate virtual NICs, choosing an appropriate install option and additional application packages, setting up server apps and firewalls, and appropriate ftp settings communicating between host OS and guest OS through virtual network connection. It took time especially with following three. 1. Settings of iptables and SELinux 2. Getting and setting up ftp server, and confirming connection from host OS to guest OS. 3. Setting an appropriate permission on the public html folder.

In the morning I was so tired that I even felt empty. I went to a local church, and I stood feeling empty for a few minutes before every action I took. I didn't know where to sit when members have lunch. Some church member helped me. I was feeling so down that even asking for a help was a burden to somebody else, and I was almost incapable of doing then. Even though the energy for swimming was left for me. Swimming may be a tough exercise, but being free from gravity gave relief to some extent.

I started subscription of Adobe Creative Cloud. I plan to subscribe for 2 months. I would like to learn how to use Dreamweaver especially. I practice along a lesson book I got yesterday. I have to make a presentation website before Abilympics, vocational skill contest, and this time I want to get used to the most famous web authoring tool.