Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

It was fine, but a little bit too windy for cycling. I road today from Sendai, via Togatta, Sichigashuku, to Yonezawa, Yamagata viewing Zao mountains and rice paddies about to be harvested. I finally road to Takahata Station, packed bike, and took train home. It was about a ride of 105 kilometers, getting over 6 passes, and going through 2 long tunnels. I couldn't pack my bike well enough, so it took time, missed a train I meant to take and wait for the next for an hour. I finally got home 7:15 p.m.

I plan as carefully as I can when I go on cycling. This is one evidence of I'm not really want to die although I occasionally utter to myself that I want to die when my mental state is a little bit down.

It's not easy to control my excitement when I attend a peer meeting of adults with developmental disabilities. A day later I usually feel soreness in my whole body muscle and my mind like a light flashback.

It's not only things of the past that cause my stress, but I'm thinking that I have to cope with present stress sources.

I'm thinking of earning LPIC level 1 certificate by the end of this year. I had been thinking in 2011 and learned for it, but I finally didn't take this test. When I learned for the test, I knew more than half of my knowledge had been lost and there were new featured I hadn't even learned. Now I'm looking for used textbook and workbook for brand-new exam.

These days there is nothing to say about developmental disorders. This means there is no topic to bring to the city-held meeting of adults with developmental disorders. Have they been all over? Or am I losing capability to feel that I'm suffering?

This afternoon, I went out to receive my new ski boots I had ordered in June. It took the entire afternoon, from 1 p.m. to 6 p.m. to go to the shop, receive the product, prepare it, pay for it and return home. I couldn't go to the pool I regularly go late in the afternoon although I had planned to do so.

Today I went on bike riding to Ishinomaki to eat Ishinomaki Yakisoba. On the way I passed through Matsushima.   Matsushima on the way   Ishinomaki Yakisoba I had planned to go there in July or August, but long rain and flat tire troubles prevented me to go, resulting in postponing to this time.

I set the rim tape I had gotten yesterday on the wheel of my road bike. I also changed the tube. It seems to work, but I have to wait the result until at least a week later. By the way the rim tapes I had originally ordered 10 days ago has been shipped and they are on the way home. Probably these are for next year's rides.

In the end I got a pair of rim tapes at a shop near Sendai station. I'm going to work with them early in the next morning. The ones I ordered more than a week ago from Amazon haven't been shipped yet.

The rim tapes I ordered on Thursday still haven't arrived yet. They haven't even been shipped. I'm likely to have to wait until the next week before I can ride my bicycle, unless I get another one on a shop.

I'm saying to myself, wait until the next morning, even if I want to practice a game after I got some information of the game. It's not too late after I get quality sleep, then concentrate on my practice in a short period.

I had flat tire three times in a month of my road bike. I fixed twice, and riding a long distance seemed to be OK, but I had flat tire again three days later, without riding even once. I checked carefully the hole and the area around the tube. The hole is on the side of the rim, and every part on the nipple holes is rising, and probably this is the cause of the flat tire. The I have ordered new rim tapes in the last weekend, but it takes several days before they arrive. Until then, I can't ride my road bike. I can patch the hole again, but chances are I have another holes a few days later, if I don't solve the rim tape problem.

A typhoon is hitting Japan. It is going trough my area early in the morning.

A typhoon far south prevented my bicycling plan today. I had planned to go to Ishinomaki, 60 kilometers away from here, prepared, and started 6:20 p.m. It was only I went 2 kilometer that a sudden rain struck me. Weather forecast had been saying that today would be cloudy and possibility of rain was as low as 20 %, but there were spots that rain suddenly. When starting, the sky to the east was dark with clouds, so chances were I would be hit by rain somewhere, nearer or farther.

This week there were a lot of things that stressed me out, but work and duty part have ended and now it's time to enjoy free time ...... and sleep.

Last Saturday I went 50 kilometers by bicycle, and the tires seemed to be OK. But on Thursday, this morning, when I check the bicycle to clean up the chain, and inflate the tires, the front tire was flat. Is my repair the other days finally didn't work? When I checked the tube, it was not likely, but it had another hole. I repaired with a patch in the morning, and I left the tube outside the tire, brought it in my room and inflated a bit. When I was back in the evening, the air was still filled. Today's repair seems to work in that I successfully patched the hole and no air leak, but the final result will be after I put the tube in the tire, and inflate it so as the bicycle is ready to run. Attaching the tube and the tire to the wheel, I have to work carefully and if there is any problem between the tire and the rim, like the rim tape problem, I'm going to have a flat tire again in a few days.

I like to scribble on my sketchbook when I'm stressed out, especially on a train to work. I especially like to draw automobiles of Japan in 1970s-80s. In these years I try to draw persons too, but compared to my picture cars, my picture persons tend to be too large to enter the cars. Sometimes the faces are the size of the doors of the cars. It's because I don't clearly determine the scale when I scribble, and the more unstable it gets the more I'm stressed out.

My stress thermometer indicated 9 degrees out of 10 when I left the train at 6:30 p.m. When I rode it I thought it did 8 degrees. The trigger was the failure of communication at a drug store near the station. My mental state and my facial expression went wilder than any time I experienced in a year. It's difficult to control my stress level prepared for every irregular event.

When I was in high school I happened to find an English dictionary at a local book store. I read it like a treasure map when I was in high school. It wasn't easy to find an English (with no Japanese) dictionary in a small city with population 50,000. With this dictionary, a dictionary can be something to read, as well as a tool to look up a word.

These days I enjoy playing 16th Touhou Project Hidden Stars in Four Seasons. In recent days, I'm trying to beat higher skill level mode like "Hard" and "Lunatic". The day before last I beat Hard mode, and today Lunatic Mode, the most difficult mode. I beat these difficult mode thanks to its season weapon/equipment system. In Touhou shooter game in this year, the use of "season equipments" is the key. It adds power to your shot, and when your decide to release, you will have special attack like mini bomb. The "Spring" gives homing shot and when it release, it expands the field and erases bullets of wide area proportional to your equipment level. You can raise equipment level up to 6 by collecting pieces of the season and when you release your season, the level goes down to 0, except for the "Summer", which cost one level for a release. The "Summer" gives wide shot and when you release it, it expands in a small area ...

It was half past 5 p.m. when I left the indoor pool by bicycle. It was not dark, but was about the time of sunset. I road eastbound, so the sunset was behind me, and I saw it though the back mirror of bicycle. Due to the sunset in the mirror, it was not easy to check if there were cars behind me, and cars with their light on early in twilight is really helpful to avoid the dangers.

I'm thinking that it isn't a bad idea donating on a site where I look up information, but it's as long as the site wouldn't harass me. It's not bad to give a small amount of money, but I don't want to give personal my information.

I drink 3-4 cups of coffee every day. I have no more in this week, but the problem is the cost. Usually, I have 2 cans and 1 Starbucks and 1 one more coffee, besides instant coffees with low cost, but in this week I have already had 4 cans and 1 Starbucks, and I'm going to have one more Starbucks on Friday. When my spirit is low, it costs more for coffee for me to maintain my spirit high enough to communicate positive messages daily.

What should I learn to enhance my homepage making skills? One is more understanding of HTML5 and CSS3. The other day, because of my incomplete understanding of CSS3 linear-gradient property, it took almost 30 minutes to adjust styles of an article, in addition to the time of writing its content.

Tomorrow, I'm going to take a paid holiday. When I was back home from work today, I got a notification from the city. City public transportation ticket for this year is ready. This one of the benefits from the city for people with disabilities. Last year, I asked my father to receive mine while he would receive for his (benefits for elderly people). This year I will go to the branch office by myself!

It was on last Sunday. Blue sky makes our heart light!

In Touhou 16, I have beaten normal mode and extra mode with all character (but not with all combinations of characters and sub seasons). This time the normal mode has reasonable difficulty, ready to beat with fair amount of efforts and understanding specific assist system. I have viewed all story of the game, and am going to try harder levels, but sleep will be the priority to keep my mind and body in shape.

This afternoon I tried my new swimming goggles. These are cushionless and mainly for racing purpose, according to manual. I went to an indoor swimming pool nearby, as I usually do Saturday afternoon, but today with my new goggles. My first impression was terrible. The sight through them was dark (because I had chosen the dark smoke color because it was reasonable then). In the first 25 meters I swam, water was let in the eyes through goggles. It seemed not to working for me. Then I changed the nose belt of the goggles to one size smaller (its original size L). It ties two cups of goggles. I had changed one size larger, O, because when I tried it on right after I got them, the goggles with default L-size nose belt was felt too tight. When I changed the nose belt back to its default size L, wore again, got into the pool and swam, no water was let in. No water was let in even after I swam 200 meters and tried a flip turn. It looks like that cushionless swimming goggles are OK as long...

Yesterday, I got Touhou 16 Hidden Star in Four Seasons. Today I finished the Normal level with all character, but not all combination of character and "sub season equipment". In this weekend I'm going to try many of the combinations, while I'm trying to beat the extra level.