Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

As planned, I went went to Shiroishi Riverside, famous for Hitome Senbonzakura, for its overwhelming number of cherry trees. As expected, cherry flowers there were yet to bloom. Still, it was beautiful riverside view with great weather, and color of the trees even though it would be a week before their flowers bloom.  I dropped by Kamafusa Dam on the way home. There were cherry trees also there, but they were expected to bloom even later, for its colder climate.

First bloom of cherry blossoms for 2018 has been reported today. I saw a few blooming on some cherry trees in the park in front of the office building my workplace is in. I plan to visit Shiroishi Riverside by bike for tomorrow, famous for Hitome Senbonzakura , literally great view 1,000 cherry trees at a glance, although it may be a bit too first for its trees to bloom.

How many letters do I write a day, especially for blog? I'm thinking of this, because I have many chances to type my ideas on mails and blog posts for my workplace. Also, sometimes I make the transcript for a speech. How much and how fast I can write depend on my typing (or writing) speed and the speed of composition, putting my ideas int words. I'm relatively fast in typing. Today I measured my typing speed and found that I can type more than 350 times a minutes (to type given Japanese words ...... it would be a little slower for me to type given English words.) In terms of putting my thought into words, I'm relatively slow. I especially have hard time to make both ends meet in my composition, even though I managed to take up with first words relatively fast. Especially when I'm tired it takes a lot of time to come up with idea of what to write, what subject to take up. Of course the quality of the writing, for example how informative, usable, and inspiring it is,...

I sometimes use vending machine to keep my motivation for jogging. I jog to a vending machine one kilometer or two away from home, and get my favorite canned coffee. The other day, one vending machine changed its lineup and there was a product I like very much, but it was sold out. I'm going to jog to check the machine, after supper, and check if it is available, and getting one if possible in a few day.

Taking advantage of a paid holiday, today, I made a monthly visit of mental clinic. On the way back I walked, taking photos of spring flowers. It was about 10 kilometers, and I felt a little bit heavy. Probably, tiredness from skiing on Saturday was still remaining.

Recent web designs typically assume full screen. This is probably from the demands from treat a website more like televisions or posters than references or notebooks. I prefer multiple windows, with narrower browser window, with text editor app or another window for reference, sometimes other pages. Even now I suffer the design "assuming full screen", editing this post. I'm editing this post on a window with width of about 900 pixels. I can see entire text box for the body of the post, but I can't see and reach all functions, like editing post schedule unless I scroll to the right or make the edit view full screen. If I think of the layout of a web page or site, I set higher priority flexibility of its layout, especially when the purpose is informational or about giving end users as many functions as possible. I think of full screen if I'm asked to show a site like a movie or television, although I myself prefer, surprising in spite of myself, letters and word...

Communication is my Achilles' heel, especially talking to a new person from me. The experience of being refused by the rest of class many years ago gave me idea that it's no use to talking to anyone else. It was only a few things of the past, only events of my childhood, but they have great influence on my seclusive and reticent personality so far. If I change these characteristic, new horizon will probably open to me, but it takes a lot of energy, and I tend to draw back to my comfort zone, the limited numbers of people I can barely talk to, and the limited topics I'm really interested to.

Another reason I haven't played video games like Touhou Project recently, I noticed, is my aged eyes. This morning I played The Embodiment of Scarlet Devil , Extra mode, but I played only once because my eyes were tired and my concentration wasn't high enough. Other reasons are that simply I'm kind of busy, and that I don't have enough energy.

It was much warmer than high season, and the snow much looser, but there was still enough amount of snow. It's really better condition for spring skiing, but not so many people in the mountain. There were only a few people on the bus to and from the mountain. After all skiing is a winter sports and most people probably thinking of enjoy fun things for spring.

Linux certification Level 2, LPIC (global) or LinuC (Japan original, held by LPI-Japan , having begun since this March, equivalent level of LPIC), I haven't decided. One thing I have decided is that I have to acquire knowledge and skills enough to pass LPIC Level 2, which is essential to pass both exams.

Certainly I'm writing something here every day, however I sometimes doubt if I'm providing you with something new by writing. My condition, mental state is nothing new (although I have told only little of all). I seldom tell you local events, or any sign of season, like lark singing these days in paddy fields, or cherry blossom will bloom in a half month. I have begun to think this way, when I come to think about the purpose of a website. Some sites are like magazines. Some are like reference books, and some like posters. Sites with blog style is said to have the strength of easiness of regular update. Then I suddenly come to think that I should have taken advantage of this strength. And in what way am I changing the direction of this blog, taking advantage of regular (daily) update. Certainly, this is daily update, but most of those update look like meaningless even to me. I update this by the obligation derived from the new year's resolution of years ago. I have...

I took an earlier train, from the demand of today's work schedule. It was cold, windy, and raining, but the train wasn't behind schedule. Later, the wind got stronger, but the rain weaker. I'm relieved I have finished all the work for the day without much trouble.

Today is Spring Equinox Day, a national holiday. The weather was cold and we had much snow in the afternoon. Thinking that it's not the weather for going out, I'm watching videos about trivia of games I played when I was a boy, like Final Fantasy.

I'm reviewing blog posts of 2012, having no idea to what to write today. I was more active and ready to express my idea and experiences then, 6 years ago, however trivial and silly they might be, even though I was down physically and mentally. Now my mind and body has become much more stable than that of then, and I wish to recover my willingness to communicate smallest ideas I come up with daily.

I made an attempt to support the group of adults with developmental disorders I belong to, by sending an email like protocols. I hadn't take notes so all the contents were based on my memory. I may want to take notes for next times if I want to continue on improving by supporting the improvement of the group, its programs and discussions.

I have rode my road bike 300 kilometers with my new hand-built wheels I built on February 11, for their run-in. I plan to true them for this week after this run-in. I changed into the original (first) wheels of the bike (with new tire, though), and rode 20 kilometers. There may not be much difference in the speed, but with the first wheels, I found that they give much less pleasure of pedaling than new hand-built ones with much lighter rims and more flexible spokes.

Yesterday evening I had curry and rice, and today at a ski area I had another dish for early lunch, before I left the place at 11 a.m. This time I'm not tired about curry and rice. I enjoy both dishes, and perhaps for tomorrow lunch... It's interesting that now I enjoy so much curry and rice, considering I didn't like it so much when I was a child.

I'm learning about Samba preparing for LPIC 202 exam. What is difficult about this subject is it is about Windows file sharing as well as about Linux. I have to understand terms about Windows file sharing such as SMB, NetBIOS, Wins and so on, rather than about those of Linux here. For sure I use Windows PC at home and at work, but I haven't consciously used file sharing there.

By this time of the day my thought has become much slower, and I have no idea of what to write. This is probably because of high temperature (20C degree) for this season. From tomorrow it's like to get much colder again, so adjustment is very important.

Actions and ideas using for other people. This is the key for me for coming years. To do this, I have to use time wisely, including how I take enough sleep time while I take actions and think.

I walked 1.2 kilometers around home at 8 p.m. I was tempted to jog, or walk longer. This time my purpose was to settle my emotion, so I needed to keep to the pace and length I had decided beforehand.

I was able to play video games a lot because I was much younger. I'm getting to think this way. I still like video games, and have some time, but now I'm more inclined to view videos of game plays by somebody else, or listen to musics of them on soundtracks. I have several soundtracks of games which I have never played, but knew from game plays by somebody else. This change of the way how I enjoy play video games perhaps reminds me of my aging.

I've just returned from ski camp at Zao Hot Spring Ski Resort. I was there on Saturday and Sunday. It was fine on both days, and it was especially beautiful on Sunday morning, without cloud, with beautiful view of the peaks, plains and mountains of Yamagata. There was still plenty of snow, but the "Snow Monsters" near the peak had been melted away. Probably it was because of huge warm rain on Friday morning.

I tend to get unsettled from a few irregulars. The latter half of this week it happened me on badly. It is said that 6 seconds is critical period to cope with your anger. I tried to endure my upset feeling for 6 seconds on Thursday. I was still panicked and unsettled. I breathed deeply. It looks like it would take another 6 seconds to me, and another 6 seconds after I spend that 6 seconds. Finally I concluded that with my perception tendency it typically take 36 seconds to settle my upset feeling after I encounter an irregular thing. Still it's important, however, to try to endure 6 second instead of resorting to a rash violent action, even if it make take me another 30 seconds to settle my anger.

Timetable of trains I take daily will be revised for March 17. I'm much relieved that the times of the trains I typically take won't change so much.

Something was wrong with the browser I use at work. The underlines of hyperlinks break under letters long downwards, like 'g', 'p', 'q'. Later I learned that the browser changed the default setting of CSS text-decoration-skip-ink property. I saw that property for the first time. I feel pretty uneasy with this change because I have been used to underlines going through the bottom of such downwards-long letters, used user style sheet, and got back the setting with which I was accustomed to. I'm wondering if I'm going to get used to underlines of hyperlinks which are applied to the "text-decoration-skip-ink" property.

He was definitely incapable of draw comics. Being comical is basically about people. Basically about interactions among people. Although he was able to draw automobiles relatively well, he drew people absolutely poorly. When he tried to draw the face of a person either one eye, one ear, or the mouth tended to drove out from the face. Then when he tried to the body, while hips, legs, feet were far apart form the face, three or four arms and shoulders overlap with each other and the face. He drew poorly relative locations of parts of the body of a person. He sometimes thought to himself. They (those whose names were on popular comic magazines) has tried millions of times. I've just tried thousands of times. Millions of trial and error can be by itself a gift, a talent.

Today my eyes were relatively good. They were good enough to judge if the words I see are ones I was required to collect. My ears ... not so bad, with mild - kind of mild - earworms. The worship song always sounded around me, but it didn't affect my work performance.

Ear worm works badly on me especially on Sunday morning. I can't plugging my ears in the first 30 minutes of worship service, because some worship songs and ear worms on me works badly on me and sometimes even the sound like someone is scratching glasses. My mental state seems to be more stable than years ago, but as far as my sound perception is concerned, I'm still struggling. It looks like I leave the place for a while and back to the chapel when I can manage with earplugs, without jumping up and down or shouting out loud.

On Sunday it was really warm, as warm as early summer. The temperature gap was so big, with winter cold of major part of last week, that it took a little while to look for clothes fit for today's weather. It seemed to be a good day for cycling, and indeed it was, but strong south-west wind prevented my pedaling sometimes.

Today I practice alpine skiing. I practiced GS set in the morning and in the afternoon. I paid for the morning lesson, and the race academy offered free practice session for the afternoon. I had planned on free skiing in the afternoon, and took 2 pairs of skis, one for giant slalom, and the other for slalom and demo skiing, but after all, today, since almost all practices related to GS, I used only the longer pair.

My mental state and behavior was relatively stable this week. I had to cope with so much work load and irregular schedule of transport due to the spring storm these days. I need some time to release tensions on my mind, standing so many irregulars.

I returned home by bus today. Trains was suspended or delayed. This spring storm is likely to continue until tomorrow. I may have to take the bus to office tomorrow morning too.