Today I practice alpine skiing. I practiced GS set in the morning and in the afternoon. I paid for the morning lesson, and the race academy offered free practice session for the afternoon. I had planned on free skiing in the afternoon, and took 2 pairs of skis, one for giant slalom, and the other for slalom and demo skiing, but after all, today, since almost all practices related to GS, I used only the longer pair.
Slow Burst
My mental state is near burst. I sometimes make strange noises myself when I feel as if my brain were going to burst. I also feel that my mind is going to burst slowly with stresses from too many unreasonable things. One source of these stresses, I suppose, is the incompatibility with the standard way of socialization especially in business scenes and my characteristic sometimes described in the context of autism spectrum disorder. Even now, while I'm thinking that standard social skills in business scenes is worth learning, I scream to myself getting mad when I learn them. Isn't just shaving my beards enough to be a salesperson? Am I going to be disadvantaged forever because the skin of my face and my head is too dry? This is one reason why I thought that I wanted to escape my country when I was 11 and 25. This made me learn some foreign language. However, I'm learning that overseas isn't so good as I dream about, especially as long as I go to public school. W...
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