Calm Sunday

I attended a Sunday worship service to a local church within 300m walk.
Unexpectedly, I kept calm during the service, although I was outside 20 minutes after the service began. I had known if I had entered pushing myself too hard, I would have been stiffened by sound.
I have been sleepy all the day since the beginning of May.
I don't have major problem with going to work in spite of my condition, but meanwhile, my desire for other activity has terribly gone down.
Especially my desire to speak on behave of young adults with autism spectrum disorder.
I enjoy learning basics of Internet services, although my pace of learning is somehow slow, and it's a bit tough if I really want to fully understand mechanisms of one communication or two.
I go to sleep a bit after 10 p.m. I'm not good at staying up at night. When I sleep even a bit after 10 p.m. the quality of my sleep go down.
I slept in the afternoon of Saturday and Sunday.

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