Today is the day of Sendai International Half Marathon. Finally I made it, but it was the toughest run ever. After 16 kilometers, my stamina almost ran out, especially in my legs, and almost stopped running. I didn't actually stop running, but I went as slow as I regularly walk. I had thought that I had built enough stamina, by cycling and swimming, but I was finally taught a lesson that the amount (distance) I actually run before the day of the race is also important. The maximum distance I had jogged one time since I registered for this year's event.
Slow Burst
My mental state is near burst. I sometimes make strange noises myself when I feel as if my brain were going to burst. I also feel that my mind is going to burst slowly with stresses from too many unreasonable things. One source of these stresses, I suppose, is the incompatibility with the standard way of socialization especially in business scenes and my characteristic sometimes described in the context of autism spectrum disorder. Even now, while I'm thinking that standard social skills in business scenes is worth learning, I scream to myself getting mad when I learn them. Isn't just shaving my beards enough to be a salesperson? Am I going to be disadvantaged forever because the skin of my face and my head is too dry? This is one reason why I thought that I wanted to escape my country when I was 11 and 25. This made me learn some foreign language. However, I'm learning that overseas isn't so good as I dream about, especially as long as I go to public school. W...
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