From the beginning of this year, 2018, I haven't share any progresses in my skiing neither here nor on my Japanese blog, although I have simply told several times the fact that I went on skiing. Since I take up cycling 2 years ago, for the first time in 10 years, my feeling of skiing is gradually changing. I feel I'm getting able to control faster speed, with firmer body core, rather than placing my body parts aside or rotating, fearing of skiing into the fall line and thinking of making a turn, actually changing the direction of my skis (not necessarily the direction I move in).
Slow Burst
My mental state is near burst. I sometimes make strange noises myself when I feel as if my brain were going to burst. I also feel that my mind is going to burst slowly with stresses from too many unreasonable things. One source of these stresses, I suppose, is the incompatibility with the standard way of socialization especially in business scenes and my characteristic sometimes described in the context of autism spectrum disorder. Even now, while I'm thinking that standard social skills in business scenes is worth learning, I scream to myself getting mad when I learn them. Isn't just shaving my beards enough to be a salesperson? Am I going to be disadvantaged forever because the skin of my face and my head is too dry? This is one reason why I thought that I wanted to escape my country when I was 11 and 25. This made me learn some foreign language. However, I'm learning that overseas isn't so good as I dream about, especially as long as I go to public school. W...
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