Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

I seek to share the singular feeling that no one within my reach offline would resonate with. Fortunately, in the support bureau of the city I've found a few people to gather monthly and share what we've struggled up to now, the feeling often deviated from "normal" people, and sometime state opinions to city staff to support the sound growth of children with kind of developmental disability, hard to resonate with the majority of for example the classmates. I have seclusion mind in a sense that I can't very well resonate with what the majority would feel cool, and hardly anyone would resonate with what I'm really, often crazily interested in. Meanwhile, I'd like to play active role where I can share peculiar view of the world and communication I've got through the experience that I've struggled with finding out what it means to me that I'm communicating with other people, and what it means to me that I can imagine another person's feeling.

This is me. Easily to freeze in public (esp. job interviews, and a mere thought of one), and sometimes cause trouble (by freezing) in the street. But eager to seek career and thinking the way to benefit others even though my communication doesn't often work very well. Used to enjoy singing worship and praise, but recently can't even listen without earplugs.

I admit I can't write complete article often. My English proficiency isn't so good. Even if so, it take too much energy to continue my career. But it is important to inform you of my team and workplace from the viewpoint of a Japanese with high-functioning autistic disorder. I can hardly write complete English, but no one around me may even try to communicate on the Internet in English. In this respect I'm sure I can provide a niche view. First, they - including me are so introverted, and hardly anyone - including me - as an aspie hasn't been encouraged to communicating in English. I hope I can make it to refer to substantial views of the society I've been experienced.

I'm becoming a team player on the Autistic Spectrum. I've learned why my communication hasn't been working very well, and this may help another teammate on the Spectrum.

I go to work every day, thanks to the workplace. This is every step I take daily.

5 minutes English a day is what I can do best ... to go nowhere.

When I saw my friend provide helpful information for people with developmental disability, I envied him and I was unhappy about my poor output ability. I was unhappy because I compared myself with him in an event he did a lot, when I didn't have to. I just should have been grateful to him on behalf of us. Actually, I do what I can do and this is the best what I can tell in my daily life.