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I meant it's not I who

have the power to make them believe, even though I share the experience and relationship with God. The problem is that I misunderstand the place to share the life with God for the one to share personal experiences with people with a various diversity. This is why I'm always struggling wherever I go to.

I'm not the one who change religions!

My religion is inseparable from my personality, and this applies for many people. The problem is how I treat "different" people. Ask God. What He feel about different people? Does he love them or not? Yes? So do I. This is answer from what I've heard so many times about gospel. I'm not the one, but He who does is...

I have a lot to learn

I have a lot to learn about employment in general and especially for disabled people. Meanwhile, I'm experiencing a job in a mild working condition which enable me to continue to work without much stress. It's disappointing that there are some people who show cynical view of working environment in general without showing any sympathy to those stuck in the position where people can hardly have any hope with their career. Arguing with them will end up for me hurting my mental health therefore it's not a good idea to do so, and instead, I'm willing to have sympathy for those in hard condition especially because of stress much more easily felt by people with ASD or other mental illnesses.

Stuck with explanation

In the morning I was stuck to explain our corporate philosophy to a student trainee. I should have done the simple thing I have been able to do in the morning in our workplace.

Sunday service

A little bit ... I mean pretty nervous. This is one opportunity I go into public.

Mental shape by dependence

One of my colleagues lives on his own. I highly depend daily chores on my mom. This explain I manage to keep stress at work at the bearable level. It's not fair to claim that he is mentally weaker than I because he sometimes lose mental shape at work. After all he and I am on the same spectrum.

A relief of being stuck in Tohoku region

For the time being I have no plan to move out of Tohoku. This may seem that I'm stuck there, but this is a bit of relief now. Now I'm into my job seeking harmony in the team the major part of which is aspies. Although each team member is in equal position, sometimes I need to behave at work in the perspective of assistance of stress, emotional, and communication management I experienced when I was struggling with looking for job or on a job training. In this reason, I have no extra energy to broaden the range of people I can talk, I guess, for the coming couple of year. But then, why am I communicating in English? I'm thinking that I'm a bilingual just talking to myself, and this situation won't change in a short period of time...