Actually I couldn't...

Actually I couldn't behave at the talk session at the very beginning, because although I was just in time I haven't finished my lunch yet, and when lunch was done, the orientation had already begun, and I got tons of direction which I could have easily imagined with my intuition, and which interrupted me greatly. This really was a obstacle preventing me from break the ice from the beginning. It was clear that I need to some time to calm myself and meditate what I should do next. Fortunately one of the staff are kind enough to listen to what I had done that was exciting while I was taking a rest. The topic unexpectedly went deeply into the experience when I was student and when I discussed peace, being denied my feeling when I had heard the opinion about the Second World War from the viewpoint of American students. Sharing these kind of story was not bad, but I wasn't there to share what only I want to talk about. I was there to share the story that other comers also wanted to discuss, and discover who they are and also find out I'm not alone through the conversation there.

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