No thirst for communication in English - too much concerned about relationship among Japanese aspies

Recently I've been involved in a conflict on a blog community for people with Asperger's Syndrome. The beginning was one blogger posted an article that show a doubt about the authenticity of the diagnosis of another blogger in that community. The other blogger showed the evidence, but the confusion became much larger and much complex when a lot of readers of both blogs threw comments on each blog, some of which were too emotional and unproductive, and some were even threatening.

I tried to communicate in this conflict in the way as productive as possible, but it was impossible to prevent the breakdown. I engaged my whole communication energy into pacifying this conflict for my fellow who share the communication difficulty - especially the limitation to understand other person's imperfection -, and this has left me with little energy - thirst - for having contact with media and fellows with English.

I'm unfortunately losing contact with one blogger I strongly sympathized the most, but this conflict has left the issue, "various needs of various people with developmental disability, with various ability and in various situation". I'm thinking this tragedy happened because just one aspect of Asperger's syndrome has gotten too strong popularity, even though this is not a fault of either blogger.

Original post in my Japanese-based blog.

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