I lost during walking to work

I took the train earlier and tried to walk one station to the workplace. The distance was 2.1km and 50 minutes was enough time to get to work. But 10 minutes before due, I found myself still far away from the station near which my office lies. I struggled to found a place at least with telephone booth, since, unlike the rest of my colleagues, I didn't have a mobile phone. At last I found myself at a shopping mall 3.8km away from the workplace when work hours began, and ended up in calling taxi to work, with 30 minutes delay. I had been upset the day before because I had had trouble with an old man in Starbucks because I unconsciously moved my mouth with babbling which made him quite uncomfortable, and I had burst into panic, with even creeping on the floor and yelling aloud. Obviously I needed to improve my behavior and giving up concentration with babble, and at the same time I needed to wash the traumatic panic experience away by taking a walk in a sunny day for a change. Unfortunately I ended up in making terrible mistakes 2 days in a row. I'm thinking maybe this is the week when I have to endure many challenges to improve my behavior and grow my thought.

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