Clunker was back with 2 levels up since its start
I began a blog "Green-eyed clunker" as a beginning of the Internet output.
At that time my goal was breaking the ice in the cyberspace, I enjoy to read but shied away from writing anything before then.
Few people turned their eyes to my entries because I had only boring topics and even those topics I could only describe less than 10 percent of them.
Therefore I failed to give any interesting view through my "Green-eyed Clunker" activity.
I described myself as "Green-eyed" because I had few opportunity to communicate and I had no choice but saying words to myself, envy of anyone else social enough to widen their world to communicate.
Another thing which made my eyes "green" was employment. When I began this blog, I was going to job training program for disabled people. I experienced several kinds of data entry works. Engaging in these works I made an effort to understand further purpose of these data entries, seeking deeper understanding of the rules given for doing those jobs. I even played a role to give (what I think) an "effective" explanation to other team members. And the members I taught how to show better performance in these works finally landed their jobs earlier than me and I continued to be in the program (because this is training, not employment) with half the pay of minimum wage.
A year later, when I also landed a job, I gave up the nickname of "Clunker" because I thought I wasn't neither "Green-eyed" nor "Clunker". I felt that my level was certainly going up.
At the same time, more mental fatigue than before I was employed, I was away from posting the Blogger, although I continued to make entries almost daily on my blog written in Japanese.
Now I'm thinking of restarting activities writing blog entries in English. One reason for this is no listener or reader isn't a thing which make me really sad. Explaining to myself is fair enough, and it's more fortunate for anyone else to find something interesting from my humble entry from the point of view from a Japanese who struggled with coming terms with Japanese schools and businesses culture, from the point of view from a person suffering from autistic spectrum disorder, and (probably) social anxiety disorder.
The reason I'm thinking calling myself as "Clunker" again is that I tried hard to behave as a businessman in a company which apparently has better understanding for employing disabled or disadvantaged people, especially people with autistic disorder or other developmental disorders, and I still find myself struggling with adjusting manners as a businessman.
I hope I'll be able to share daily reflections again as a leveled-up "Clunker".
At that time my goal was breaking the ice in the cyberspace, I enjoy to read but shied away from writing anything before then.
Few people turned their eyes to my entries because I had only boring topics and even those topics I could only describe less than 10 percent of them.
Therefore I failed to give any interesting view through my "Green-eyed Clunker" activity.
I described myself as "Green-eyed" because I had few opportunity to communicate and I had no choice but saying words to myself, envy of anyone else social enough to widen their world to communicate.
Another thing which made my eyes "green" was employment. When I began this blog, I was going to job training program for disabled people. I experienced several kinds of data entry works. Engaging in these works I made an effort to understand further purpose of these data entries, seeking deeper understanding of the rules given for doing those jobs. I even played a role to give (what I think) an "effective" explanation to other team members. And the members I taught how to show better performance in these works finally landed their jobs earlier than me and I continued to be in the program (because this is training, not employment) with half the pay of minimum wage.
A year later, when I also landed a job, I gave up the nickname of "Clunker" because I thought I wasn't neither "Green-eyed" nor "Clunker". I felt that my level was certainly going up.
At the same time, more mental fatigue than before I was employed, I was away from posting the Blogger, although I continued to make entries almost daily on my blog written in Japanese.
Now I'm thinking of restarting activities writing blog entries in English. One reason for this is no listener or reader isn't a thing which make me really sad. Explaining to myself is fair enough, and it's more fortunate for anyone else to find something interesting from my humble entry from the point of view from a Japanese who struggled with coming terms with Japanese schools and businesses culture, from the point of view from a person suffering from autistic spectrum disorder, and (probably) social anxiety disorder.
The reason I'm thinking calling myself as "Clunker" again is that I tried hard to behave as a businessman in a company which apparently has better understanding for employing disabled or disadvantaged people, especially people with autistic disorder or other developmental disorders, and I still find myself struggling with adjusting manners as a businessman.
I hope I'll be able to share daily reflections again as a leveled-up "Clunker".
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