I got to know again about the importance of Sunday retreat

Sunshine and light green view in the riverside of early view healed me pretty much.
This was what happened when I went to the Sunday service of today.
I also learned that faithful behaviors make a good family.
I was so scared of people this morning that I could talk to hardly anyone.
I walked in a strange way when I go to the church and during the sermon.
I spoke a few words to kids of age 3-4.
I was so nervous that it took 10 minutes for me to have lunch after other members started to have lunch.
Soon after I burst into scream because I couldn't stand people were enjoying their conversations while I feel I was in such a distress.
I retreated to the empty chapel and lay on one of the benches.
It's grateful the the pastor came to talk to me and prayed for me.
Weekdays, I do my best to behave, and especially I try to be able to speak and walk properly, but it doesn't look like to last long without break.
From this experience, I got to know again about the importance of Sunday retreat.

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