This morning I climbed the road to Izumigatake by bike. It's for the first time in 2 years. Last year I didn't ride this road, because it was steep and long uphill, 7 km road with 400 meter elevation, and climbing this road was beyond the load suitable for improving high blood pressure. This year I decided to go, because I had confidence in my stamina, having swum a lot during the summer holiday.
It took 41 min 20 seconds to climb, 3 minutes slower than last time. I was disappointed because it was much slower than I have expected. It's probably because the lack of bike riding experience for this year. This year I was away from cycling for mental and weather reason, although I was at least physically in shape, and going swimming every weekend. My stamina wasn't so bad, but I have long forgotten how to ride bike faster.

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