Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

I feel a bit burnt out. I've learned what to say if I have to report something, but one of my co-workers is struggling with this communication skill. It's strange that I, with autism spectrum, helping someone with communication. I may have been learned that how to communicate, but it doesn't necessarily mean that I can be comfortable after lots of communication.

Months before I was siren right after I left my workplace home. Recently I was silent, struggling with finding what to say in my blogs. Both of these were because I was so overloaded.

Before I began to work, I thought that someone would solve my problems which prevent me from working and using my abilities. I've, however, noticed that work is to solve problems of other people. Considering this, what I did then was seeking someone else working for me instead of myself working for someone else.

Recently, and almost throughout since the beginning of this blog, I've mainly focused on troubles and stress from my characteristic related to autism spectrum. Now I'm thinking of changing the way of thinking. Using more positive words. Through the experience of working for my current job, I've learned this perspective. Stress and tiredness may be real, but still I believe that I can make the most out of them, because there are a lot of things to learn from them and from the cause of them, mainly from communications. For example I guess I tend to get more stress than average people. This however make myself more conscious of the load of communication of myself, my bosses and my colleagues, and made myself aware of the need of acquiring more effective communication skills not only to achieve higher performance, but also to reduce the stress in communications.

In elementary school I was a trouble maker. I didn't intend to make a trouble, but finally I ended up in being involved in trouble. This was one of my typical days. Probably the way of reaction and communication was really strange and terrible. I simply just wanted to have a chat like other kid did, but hardly anybody turned to me. I sometimes screamed to draw attention. I sometimes cried because the trouble I was get involved was so severe. But the worst thing I went through through was I was treated as if I hadn't been there. One day in classroom, no one responded when I asked for some information to get by. I even felt that I was invisible in the classroom. On the other hand, I also had memory of playing with friends. Playing video games, and playing soccer even though I couldn't play very well. There were a few times that I was addressed. The memory that I felt as if I had been invisible was so shocking that it had been all about the life when I was in...

Take time and effort to type syntax of a programming language? Or take time and effort to make simple macros to make an element from quite a simple words? Recently I'm raising this question because parentheses and brackets required for making most of programming code element are placed in relatively inconvenient places on your keyboard, and typing open and close many times causes fatigue. I thought that if  I make a simple macro to input a programming part, perhaps I may be able to reduce fatigue when I'm typing programming codes. Another problem is that thinking of, making, arranging, and organizing the macros will be another time and effort.

I plan to cut the cost of coffee I drink on weekdays by taking soluble coffee with me to work. I ordered a Thermos stainless bottle and a bottle of soluble coffee. I also bought small containers to carry portions of soluble coffee for a cup or two. I had thought of buying single-serve sticks, but finally at last I chose Mount Hagen instant coffee, because it had good reputation. The problem is whether I can continue boil hot water for the coffee for the day. I'm planning to carry hot water in the stainless bottle, a mug cup and coffee in the container.