Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

As planned I started early, visited a mental clinic, and then I visited a dentist. Mental clinic visited ended in 30 minutes, so I have much spare time to catch a train to be in time of my visit to dentist's. At the dentist I had my plaque removed. Last week the medication ended without much pain, so I expected things go this way this time too. It wasn't for today. It took a lot of effort to remove the plaque for today. When I washed my mouth after medication, my mouth became a little bit bloody. Even 3 hours later, my mouth became bloody occasionally. It was so painful that I couldn't chew meat at today's dinner. I wished I could have been able to eat more, but the pain prevent from doing this. I learned a lesson that I shouldn't have leave plaque on my teeth without taken care of by dentist's for five years.

Mental clinic and dentist. Tomorrow morning I set a tight schedule, visiting two hospitals. I'll visit the mental clinic for the first time in 4 weeks. I usually visit on triweekly basis. In the early morning I'd like to jog as long as I did last week, and I'd also like to swim in the afternoon as I regularly do on Saturdays.

When I forgot about troubles I had encountered and negative things I originally would like to write, I lost focus in what I write. Originally, I intended to begin this blog to introduce myself on the autism spectrum and struggling with communications in my daily life. This is the result I didn't like to have in that I fail to live up to expectations from those who want to read messages from the inner world of the autism spectrum. On the other hand, however, forgetting about troubles in the past and negative feelings means I've become healthier mentally. In this respect, I think now I'm losing focus in a healthy way.

I'm searching the Internet for announcements of railway services. I'm looking for train announcements and announcements at a railway station. The reason I'm looking for them is that I want to be good at making a speech, and I'm thinking that begin with what I like and what I'm likely to encounter daily the most.

When I'm on a train, I see many ads. Some are on the walls, and some are hung from the ceiling. What are these ads about? Some are guides for event trains, package tours and discount tickets. Some are about lotteries. Some are about drinks. There are also ads about colleges and vocational schools. Not only ads, there are also a lot of features we ride daily. We may think that there is nothing new about trains we take daily, but the features we see day by day may be new to some reader, so I'd like to describe such features as many as I can, when my condition is good enough.

I'm slowly recovering from tiredness from a English test I took 3 weeks ago. Sometimes, I have obsessive behaviors, especially when I left the train and I left the workplace, but the frequency has been much reduced. Today I had to respond to visitors several times, and realized how poorly I able to interact with people in unexpected situations. 5 hours later when I was on the train home, I have a bit of flashback, leaned against the wall or the door in a strange posture looking knocked out. I also jumped up and down with the sound leaking from headphones of smart phone game apps. I know it's foolish of me to behave this way, but at the same time I'm in distress from hyperacusys, and I wonder, why the person who plays music so loud that many passenger hear leaking sounds from headphones, and a strange person (me) is kind of dancing in an inappropriate situation with the leaked music. In this situation, it's a shame that I behaved badly, and barely escaped from any tr...

I mistakenly knocked the door of chapel in the middle of sermon. I had practiced repeatedly how to politely enter a room. It was clear autumn day with sky blue and in the middle of grass field was a stack of grass mowed, which was good to lay myself down tired with weekdays' tiredness. After the worship service I wiped tables preparing for lunch, but I didn't join the lunch. I had a very strong desire to have a bowl of ramen. After 20 minutes' walk I arrived a ramen shop and I enjoyed the ramen very much. Then I played a video game to get various results. I enjoyed very much. There may be a lot of anxiety about this coming week, but remembering what I enjoyed encourage me much, even if they all may be really small things.