Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

There are a lot of textbooks, handouts and notes in my room. There are tens of thousands of pages or sheets of piece of writing, by other people or by myself, for the purpose to learn English. As for other subjects such as mathematics or information technologies, things are similar. I admit that there are a lot to learn, and there are many things I learned when I was school but have forgotten and want to learn again. I, however, also have to admit that I have to limit and choose carefully the sources from which I learn things. Otherwise, I might be going to be stuck with huge piles of paper which may be informative but much less important for my life ahead, especially for next year. Learning English and other subjects is fun, even though when I have to learn, it take a lot of energy, courage, will power, and sometimes time to begin learning, and even though much of my learning experience is much challenging and stressful. Choosing things which I really need and enjoy will be...

I was cleaning up my room a little bit because after I removed wax from my skis, a lot of wax  remaining on them left as dust. I was shocked at what a mess my room is. I have known that my room is really untidy. As I clean room once in a while, my room clutters 10 time the pace I clean up. This means, I have to clean up 10 times harder than I do now. Realizing the fact, I'm thinking of getting rid of unnecessary things from my room, making my cleaning up more efficient.

Today and tomorrow. I will have posted something every day for 2 years, if I post something on today and tomorrow. Today, I'm writing this post, and tomorrow, there will be no problem... I really hope so. Sometimes in this year I felt it hard to post even a word or two, and spent a few hours in front of the screen of my laptop. Contents are far from what I want to be in the future, regretfully. Having said that the problem is that I also have noticed that I don't have no clear picture or words to describe my future dream. This subject will probably be a theme for me for next year.

I plan to go skiing for tomorrow. Skiing ground I go to the most will open on that day. To be honest, I'm still hesitating, being overwhelmed by preparation. My action and my decision is much slower than when I'm fully fine. I hope skiing will be a good refreshment for me. Reaching the mountain whatever time would be good for my mental health.

The things I enjoyed this year. Remembering what I enjoyed is good for my mental health. 1. Eating out in the lunchtime on Saturdays. 2. Drawing automobiles, trains, and practicing drawing some persons. 3. Playing games - atelier series and touhou shooters. 4. Listening to musics, some of which are hi-res. 5. Enjoying learning English, especially listening to some podcast services. These are what I enjoyed this year. I think there are more. I also have things I enjoyed at work. I hope I will be able to tell some days later.

Touhou Kanjuden ~ Legacy of Lunatic Kingdom This is what I got the day before yesterday. It's for the first time in 5 years that I buy a brand-new Touhou Project game. I retried 874 times before I beat the normal level. Bullets there are even more severer than the Lunatic (hardest) level of Touhou 7 Perfect Cherry Blossom, which I often play even now. Now I'm going to try Extra mode, but before then I feel like playing older Touhou games I'm used to playing.

Yesterday, I reported that I had worked through this year without a big trouble, but to be honest, I have been feeling burnt out at the end of this year. I guess I feel much better than last year because I don't hear noises of big sounds of a siren, an alarm or a bell. Still sometimes I feel find myself flapping and clapping my hands without a special reason. This is not critical sign, but still I sometime think that I could be better. I could be thinking more, going out more, editing more source cords and writing more blog ideas. Controlling my activities according to my condition is one progress I made this year, and being aware of and admitting being burnt out is the key to spend the next coming year without big trouble.