Actually Burnt Out - My Progresses 97

Yesterday, I reported that I had worked through this year without a big trouble, but to be honest, I have been feeling burnt out at the end of this year.

I guess I feel much better than last year because I don't hear noises of big sounds of a siren, an alarm or a bell. Still sometimes I feel find myself flapping and clapping my hands without a special reason. This is not critical sign, but still I sometime think that I could be better. I could be thinking more, going out more, editing more source cords and writing more blog ideas.

Controlling my activities according to my condition is one progress I made this year, and being aware of and admitting being burnt out is the key to spend the next coming year without big trouble.

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