Listing up Voices I Feel As If I Heard (I know these are my obsessibe thoughts) - My Progresses 91
"Many Japanese wants to be fluent in English, so you also should have the same goal."
> In fact I know some people like to talk frequently and with many people, and some people like to talk once in a while and with fewer and closer people. I know not every people even in church understand my way of behavior, even though they are basically nice. I find it hart to enjoy conversation with people who don't have smallest sympathy of my panicky behavior from my anxiety with communication with other people.
"Who would be interested in stories of a person on the autism spectrum English is whose second language, now that there are a lot of stories from adults on the spectrum whose first language is English."
> The real problem is that my attitude that I only want to talk and much less ready to listen to other people in similar situations. It takes disciplines to share stories around my experiences and ones of some other people.
"You may feel miserable, putting your feeling into words and posting/publishing on your blog make some people uncomfortable, because they may feel you look like begging care or attention."
> First I need to find the right person to speak. Speaking my stressful experiences in public has a risk that it may reach the people who despise these kinds of stories, and holding back is not good either because of the risk of resort to rash behavior which may cause much more miserable results.
These are the words I feel so obsessively that sometimes I feel I were hearing these words in my head and echo there.
Actually, sometimes I can enjoy loneliness, listening to jazz and game musics. I also like to think about what stories to tell. Would I tell stories of a small mountain nearby on the top of which has great view? Would I introduce some ramen shops nearby which has long a waiting line on every holiday? I also like to draw picture of cars and roads of past and fiction just daydreaming. This is a good way to forget pain I sometimes feel after I talk with other people with a miserable result, or even in a enjoyable conversation, after some of which I feel beaten hard repeatedly although in fact I enjoyed the conversation.
> In fact I know some people like to talk frequently and with many people, and some people like to talk once in a while and with fewer and closer people. I know not every people even in church understand my way of behavior, even though they are basically nice. I find it hart to enjoy conversation with people who don't have smallest sympathy of my panicky behavior from my anxiety with communication with other people.
"Who would be interested in stories of a person on the autism spectrum English is whose second language, now that there are a lot of stories from adults on the spectrum whose first language is English."
> The real problem is that my attitude that I only want to talk and much less ready to listen to other people in similar situations. It takes disciplines to share stories around my experiences and ones of some other people.
"You may feel miserable, putting your feeling into words and posting/publishing on your blog make some people uncomfortable, because they may feel you look like begging care or attention."
> First I need to find the right person to speak. Speaking my stressful experiences in public has a risk that it may reach the people who despise these kinds of stories, and holding back is not good either because of the risk of resort to rash behavior which may cause much more miserable results.
These are the words I feel so obsessively that sometimes I feel I were hearing these words in my head and echo there.
Actually, sometimes I can enjoy loneliness, listening to jazz and game musics. I also like to think about what stories to tell. Would I tell stories of a small mountain nearby on the top of which has great view? Would I introduce some ramen shops nearby which has long a waiting line on every holiday? I also like to draw picture of cars and roads of past and fiction just daydreaming. This is a good way to forget pain I sometimes feel after I talk with other people with a miserable result, or even in a enjoyable conversation, after some of which I feel beaten hard repeatedly although in fact I enjoyed the conversation.
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