Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

At the year end of 2016, I was inactive, down with a cold. The year 2016 was good in that I was healthy enough to work through it, and also I continued the habit of writing something here. What comes in 2017? I'm feeling urges from the group of adults with similar disorders like me. I'm feeling mental pressures from the urge to the group go forward, considering messages shared by some members. Of course I'm not personally attacked. In my view, it is really difficult to the organization go ahead without help of people of the different type of us. I think the nature of people with similar traits to mine is they are far too less interested in other people's needs and idea however hard they try to understand. We first need to be understood by our key persons who are good at listening to someone else's voices and empathize with them. I quite often feel that I'm really understand some other members' needs to put out a certain message. On the other han...

It's fortunate that my cold have gotten worse. My fever level in the morning is 36.9C. I hope I'm getting better in 2 or 3 days. By the time new year has begun.

My fever seemed to come down to normal, but actually have stayed in the level of around 37C. My hip joints still sore. I have no choice but staying lying on my bed most of the day and browse some web pages once in a while. I had planned to ski twice in this year since the beginning the holidays, but plan for this year have to be rescheduled. New year's skiing, it depends on my condition especially on my fever.

My fever came down to 36.9C in the morning from 38.5C last night. Until now at 6:00 a.m. my body temperature has been the same level. It is less likely that I have flu, but still I have to be careful enough not to chill my body, absorbed in reading articles on video games.

It looks like I had already caught a cold by yesterday afternoon. Even worse, it can be flu. In the morning, my fever was 36.5C, slightly higher than usual, and I had sore throat. I'm feverish with 38.5C after I came home from work, and 100 heart beats a minute. Now almost all my joints seem to sore. Tomorrow, I will go to hospital. Fortunately I'm off duty until January 5, but I'm worried if the hospital nearby will be open, and if I actually have flu.

If cold prevention is my priority, giving up posting everyday can be a choice to sleep early taking care of myself. In the morning I was fine, and it seemed to have been so throughout the day. Things changed in the afternoon. At 4:30 p.m. I suddenly lost my concentration. I was gradually becoming weak on the train home, feeling my every muscle and my throught slightly sore. I'm not really coughing, but my parents are. My throat isn't really sore so much that my voice change, but has a kind of "itchy" feeling in the back of it. I wondered it may be an early sign of cold. If I take a rest now, perhaps I will find myself driving away cold in its early, but I think this is only if I go to bed immediately, stopping thinking about what to post here.

I got two fluorescent lamps and 2 CDs on this Christmas day. These are what I got at an auction and ordered at Amazon. However I'm feeling that the arrival of these product as a Christmas present and I got another present. I was able to attend the worship service today and the party after the service with much less tension. I didn't need earplugs to "endure" piano sounds of worship songs, and even able to sing properly. Surprisingly I didn't panicked when I was at church. I attended the series of events 95% fully. I left during cleanup after the party, because I needed to take care of myself, but it was after most of the work had been done. My anxiety is that these days more and more people close to me has caught cold. I have got a lot of presents, but getting flu is unwelcome present.