Christmas presents I got today, especally mental ones

I got two fluorescent lamps and 2 CDs on this Christmas day.

These are what I got at an auction and ordered at Amazon.
However I'm feeling that the arrival of these product as a Christmas present and

I got another present.
I was able to attend the worship service today and the party after the service with much less tension. I didn't need earplugs to "endure" piano sounds of worship songs, and even able to sing properly.

Surprisingly I didn't panicked when I was at church. I attended the series of events 95% fully.
I left during cleanup after the party, because I needed to take care of myself, but it was after most of the work had been done.

My anxiety is that these days more and more people close to me has caught cold.
I have got a lot of presents, but getting flu is unwelcome present.

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