Tiny monster of flash back actually surprised me during a skiing lesson

"Monster surprised you." I suddenly uttered in the middle of the skiing teaching method training.

This is a message I often saw when I played Wizardry series when I was a teenager.

Horii Yuuji, famous for the scenario writer of Dragon Quest series, also put this message in the 3D maze of his earlier work "The Portopia Serial Murder Case", paying homage to Wizardly.

But why during skiing lesson did I uttered this message?
Is this another version of flashback, although it wasn't unpleasant, in order to relieve my tense mood to cope with a duty even though skiing was a pleasant thing.

A few tiny monsters of petty flashback and trivial riddle actually surprised me a bit.

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