Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

Sometimes I almost hear things recently! It's been about a week. It's time to sleep as soon as possible, rather than wasting time in front of web browser windows in which are full of discouraging news or mortifying comments by people who like to attack or look down on someone else.

Tired, getting unproductive, lower performance, getting even worse mental state and lower self image, and even more tired. This has been a vicious circle typical of my bad mental state. To break this circle, it's important to remember what I enjoyed, what I achieved, and what I contributed to someone else.

Presentation: It has been my stumbling block. I have had problems with making public speech, as well as making friends. I ruined several chances my academic and business career because I was extremely scared of making a presentation. I also had disadvantage in some English proficiency tests because I was scared of speak and tended to be at a loss what to speak. Through disciplines in vocational rehabilitation trainings and job experiences in my current work place, I have managed to get able to give simple presentations. Still, preparing for and making a presentation cost me so much energy that I get extremely tired especially mentally for a week after the presentation.

My tiredness recently is probably mental one rather than physical. It take long before I'm capable of jogging after I go out for jogging. Until then I feel so weak that I can only walk slowly. Once I find myself I'm capable of jogging, I also find myself that I'm not so weaker than I was before physically. It takes long time for warming up, of course for my body, but takes much longer for my mind.

Having burnt out in "Abilympic Miyagi" vocational skills competition and with tasks of the end of the month, my tiredness hasn't fully been relieved. The latter half of the week, my feeling got much weaker, my actions much slower, and finding myself as apathetic as when my condition was really bad. Fortunately, I was able to make my decision much simpler than usual, and I finished the work for this week without much trouble.

This morning I opened the package of my new iPod Touch (6th generation) I got last Thursday, taking advantage of a half holiday. I had been too busy and tired to open. I did minimum initial setting. A few apps I want to install, like Kindle app are still left. I received a few emails through the initializing processes, like associating with my existing Apple ID, and in a mail was described as "iPod Touch 7th generation". Well there might be some minor updates within so-called 6th generation. This time I hope the battery will be alive for a few years, for as to my previous one, a 4th generation iPod Touch, the battery was near-dead even right after I got it. Probably the battery had already gotten old and weak before I got it. This time, getting "Apple Certified Refurbished Product", it's equipped with a new battery, so it's going to be OK.

This morning I scheduled paid for LPIC 202 exam. The exam date is Saturday, August 18. I have to read exam books and solve practice quizzes repeatedly as many as possible before the exam date.