Autumn is also a beginning of the year for local skiing organization.
For some reasons, I'm registers as a junior instructor where I used to live, and I'm also a member of a local skiing club in my region.
Double membership fee is certainly a reason that makes my mood pretty cloudy, although I enjoy this season by riding my bike for a long time under clear autumn sky.
I'm also thinking that things are as serious as I don't have enough communication or mental faculty to straighten up this double member ship issue. Doesn't it mean that I also lack communication faculty to maintain and serve as a role of an instructor status and role?
I think at least I have been able to enjoy skiing at least as a personal sport and recreation, but I'm not strong enough to work as a office worker and play a key role to support skiing organization, while fighting with my developmental disorder and derivative mental depression/schizophrenia.

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