Is my mental state worse than a few years before? I was thinking when I went to a clinic, and had hard time, having a mild meltdown. I gave up going the mental clinic later, and I put of my visit coming Thursday.
These days I tend to be tired from trivial sounds I hear my everyday life. They often affect my temper badly, and often end up in finding myself frowning, enduring the shock or horrible ideas I sometimes come up with.
This happened a few years ago, and terribly affected on my style of behavior. Sometimes I obsessed about checking my baggage before I got off train, and sometimes it took a few minutes before I begin to walk after I get off a train. At that time I even thought about upgrade of my disability certificate, which means my mental illness had gotten even worse.
As for this year, after looking back on then and these days, my mental state, temper, and despair are not so serious than then. I'm positive that I'm doing much better in many of my routine works.
One problem is I find it much more harder to what I think of feel. Sometimes I even feel that my capability of thinking and feeling is slowly fading away, and about the half of what I had a few years ago.
These days I tend to be tired from trivial sounds I hear my everyday life. They often affect my temper badly, and often end up in finding myself frowning, enduring the shock or horrible ideas I sometimes come up with.
This happened a few years ago, and terribly affected on my style of behavior. Sometimes I obsessed about checking my baggage before I got off train, and sometimes it took a few minutes before I begin to walk after I get off a train. At that time I even thought about upgrade of my disability certificate, which means my mental illness had gotten even worse.
As for this year, after looking back on then and these days, my mental state, temper, and despair are not so serious than then. I'm positive that I'm doing much better in many of my routine works.
One problem is I find it much more harder to what I think of feel. Sometimes I even feel that my capability of thinking and feeling is slowly fading away, and about the half of what I had a few years ago.
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