Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

Move forward instead of think of the past terrible experiences. Otherwise, I'm afraid, anger and sadness might overwhelm me, and I'd get stuck again.

Recently I've been involved in a conflict on a blog community for people with Asperger's Syndrome. The beginning was one blogger posted an article that show a doubt about the authenticity of the diagnosis of another blogger in that community. The other blogger showed the evidence, but the confusion became much larger and much complex when a lot of readers of both blogs threw comments on each blog, some of which were too emotional and unproductive, and some were even threatening. I tried to communicate in this conflict in the way as productive as possible, but it was impossible to prevent the breakdown. I engaged my whole communication energy into pacifying this conflict for my fellow who share the communication difficulty - especially the limitation to understand other person's imperfection -, and this has left me with little energy - thirst - for having contact with media and fellows with English. I'm unfortunately losing contact with one blogger I strongly...

Being aware of responsibility to the group I belong in was important, but seeking leadership by ignoring the one God establishes was wrong. Just pray for leaders God has chosen and ask Him for fill them with holy spirit. And I hope to serve to the best of my capacity.

Lord, I L O V ... blush it's so embarrassing. Every time I read Bible and listen Bible message, I brush whenever I here l*** as in "God is l***" (*^^*)

In university, I managed to go to classroom, ant there were a lot of students. A group of students were chatting together over topics of hobbies and games I was interested in. I wanted to join, but, after two years of sick leave, I didn't know them at all. The thing I wanted to talk was in my brain and on the tip of my tongue, and finally my mouth began to move. The students seemed not to turn attention to me, and I couldn't really take an action to address them. It was as if there had been a barrier between them and us. At that time, I explained this sense of alienation as the distance of one round earth trip i.e. 40,000 kilometers.

Platforms for local trains are 920 mm high, and ones for Shinkansen bullet train are 1,100 mm high. Platforms for commuting trains in large city areas are also 1,100 mm, so when trains designed for these areas arrive to a platform in local train area, there is a gap from the platform to the floor of the train car. In the past platforms used to be 760 mm high, but most platforms of JR line is either 920 mm or 1,100 mm high. When riding on a local train, you usually have to climb one step inside the car from the entrance to the main floor of the train. A new train which has been introduced recently is designed as barrier-free train, has low floor, and has no gap from platform to the floor of the train. Barrier-free train design is desirable, but managing two heights of the platforms may be preventing the train carriers from realizing it.

Actually I couldn't behave at the talk session at the very beginning, because although I was just in time I haven't finished my lunch yet, and when lunch was done, the orientation had already begun, and I got tons of direction which I could have easily imagined with my intuition, and which interrupted me greatly. This really was a obstacle preventing me from break the ice from the beginning. It was clear that I need to some time to calm myself and meditate what I should do next. Fortunately one of the staff are kind enough to listen to what I had done that was exciting while I was taking a rest. The topic unexpectedly went deeply into the experience when I was student and when I discussed peace, being denied my feeling when I had heard the opinion about the Second World War from the viewpoint of American students. Sharing these kind of story was not bad, but I wasn't there to share what only I want to talk about. I was there to share the story that other comers also wanted ...