Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

I can't afford to tired more viewing web sites in a way which make me rather unhappy. It's time to quit this way of surfing the web, and to begin at least to have a rest so that I recover from my tiredness.

My condition these days. I don't think it's so bad. My obsessive behaviors have been much improved. I'm more likely to judge things with rational thoughts. Months ago, I couldn't hardly believe my eyes. When I visit websites to correct information, I even doubted if there was hidden information I can't see. These days, I don't care much about illusion of "hidden information". My physical performance is a bit of problem. It takes much more effort to do exercises regularly. When I try to run at a pace I ran a full marathon when I was in 20s, I become breathless just after running 3 kilometers. When I jog longer I can't even run so fast that I become breathless. Recovery form tiredness has become much slower too. When I did my exercise on Sunday, I feel my muscles sore even on Tuesday or even on Wednesday. Last Sunday I exercised hard, and I think it's time to do exercise again next morning on Wednesday, but actually it depends on how I ...

Will I like skiing in this coming winter? These years I asked questions at this time of the year. Of course I have loved skiing since I began 20 years ago. Basically I enjoy skiing every time I go. Then why I ask this question myself before beginning of skiing season? It's because in this time of the year I'm worried about procedures and payments of membership / registration fees. 10 years passed since I got my instructor license, but I haven't really taught skiing. When I was striving for the license, skiing was much higher priority. It was even mistakenly high, and I was also obsessed with the idea that if I didn't have a position as an instructor, my aspiration for skiing wouldn't last long time. I was fearing of life without skiing. Striving for instructor's license was the way to be linked with the skiing society. I haven't taught anyone skiing, and most of the times I went skiing I went alone. Skiing continues to be one powerful way to get rid ...

On Sunday, I began to jog as I had planned. After I jogged at 1.5 kilometers the pace I plan to run on the race, I found that it was impossible to run at the same pace another 1.5 kilometers. I slowed down. Instead of running as planned, I jogged and walked a little bit longer. Although I exercised a lot, my condition wasn't so bad and I was able to speak to some extent when I went to church.

On a Saturday in late September, it was rainy in the morning, and much colder than a week ago, when it was sunny and hot in the day. I needed my long sleeve shirt on, and I had sore throat from sudden cold weather. I had planned to jog a little bit yesterday evening, but the quality of my sleep last night wasn't so good that I feel like vigorously going out for jogging. Instead in the afternoon I swam a lot, more than 2 kilometers, including 400 meters of kick practice. It depends on my condition then, but I'm planning on jogging tomorrow morning, first 1.5 kilometer slowly, then 3 kilometers with the same pace I'm planning to run in a road race, and at last 1.5 kilometers slowly. The aim is to get used to longer distance with milder load than last week, keeping race pace in a shorter distance and keeping a comfortably slow pace the rest of training.

Tonight, I wanted to write about a sleep remedy. This is not to browse on the Internet too late. The problem is that I already wrote a post yesterday. Well, this is no problem, probably. The real problem is I've been really concerned about the quality of sleep these days. I thought that I have posted many articles in September, but looking up entries for September, posts about sleep are only one I posted yesterday and this article I'm going to post. It's good that I have had relatively good sleep these days. By the time I return home today, fortunately, I didn't have "strange noises" in my mind which make me feel like crying out loud (but in most cases I make a lot of efforts not to do that). It's good that these day I don't have to feel like screaming after work. Sleep may be my main concern these days, but I may want to take a step forward or two. When I acquire a habit to have good sleeps, it will be time to consider developing skills of d...

My motivation to think and write fast is to have as long sleep as possible. Unfortunately tonight I've spent 45 minutes blankly surfing the Web, which may make my sleep shorter. If I fall asleep 10 p.m. and get up 5 a.m. the next day I'll have a sleep of 7 hours. I'll have a good amount of sleep in terms of time (its quality is another question) and still have two hours to do something before I have breakfast. I often hear that it's desirable to be offline hours before you go to sleep. This is the reason I want to write a post before 9 a.m. and hopefully the short time between the time I get back home and one I have supper.