Do I like skiing? I always ask in this time of the year
Will I like skiing in this coming winter? These years I asked questions at this time of the year.
Of course I have loved skiing since I began 20 years ago. Basically I enjoy skiing every time I go.
Then why I ask this question myself before beginning of skiing season? It's because in this time of the year I'm worried about procedures and payments of membership / registration fees.
10 years passed since I got my instructor license, but I haven't really taught skiing. When I was striving for the license, skiing was much higher priority. It was even mistakenly high, and I was also obsessed with the idea that if I didn't have a position as an instructor, my aspiration for skiing wouldn't last long time. I was fearing of life without skiing. Striving for instructor's license was the way to be linked with the skiing society.
I haven't taught anyone skiing, and most of the times I went skiing I went alone. Skiing continues to be one powerful way to get rid of mental stress for me. The problem is maintaining the link to the skiing society can be much stressful to me.
Those who are strongly absorbed int skiing are likely to have little understanding of those who have mental struggle, and those who are experiencing mental struggle are hardly likely to understand those who enjoy skiing.
As far as I am concerned, I belong to both group, and at least I can enjoy skiing as long as I'm alone. So now it is time to make it simple and define myself as "just a skier".
Having said that, it may not be a good choice to have a big change in which I give up the status of instructor immediately when I'm in mental distress, so I guess I'm going to try to keep myself in my current status.
Of course I have loved skiing since I began 20 years ago. Basically I enjoy skiing every time I go.
Then why I ask this question myself before beginning of skiing season? It's because in this time of the year I'm worried about procedures and payments of membership / registration fees.
10 years passed since I got my instructor license, but I haven't really taught skiing. When I was striving for the license, skiing was much higher priority. It was even mistakenly high, and I was also obsessed with the idea that if I didn't have a position as an instructor, my aspiration for skiing wouldn't last long time. I was fearing of life without skiing. Striving for instructor's license was the way to be linked with the skiing society.
I haven't taught anyone skiing, and most of the times I went skiing I went alone. Skiing continues to be one powerful way to get rid of mental stress for me. The problem is maintaining the link to the skiing society can be much stressful to me.
Those who are strongly absorbed int skiing are likely to have little understanding of those who have mental struggle, and those who are experiencing mental struggle are hardly likely to understand those who enjoy skiing.
As far as I am concerned, I belong to both group, and at least I can enjoy skiing as long as I'm alone. So now it is time to make it simple and define myself as "just a skier".
Having said that, it may not be a good choice to have a big change in which I give up the status of instructor immediately when I'm in mental distress, so I guess I'm going to try to keep myself in my current status.
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