Suicide prevention week

Due to heavy rain some train was suspended in Sendai, but it's fortunate that I'm home now.

The torrential rain that broke a bank in Ibaraki prefecture surprised us much, especially my parents.

As for me, I was rather apathetic towards the news and even irritated when I came home and heard that. I didn't know what to say. Aware of this, I noticed that I was then too occupied with myself and too tired to feel for what was going on outside.

Just now I saw an ad which informed me of Suicide Prevention Week from today in one week. Now I'm not depressed as to think of commiting suicide, but I need to take care of myself to recover the empathy, the mind feeling for other people.

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