Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

Sometimes I view videos of trauma scenes in video games. I have seldom viewed horror movies, but when I'm stressed out I seek for horror in a way kind of familiar with me. Like the messages and the music of curse when my save data was broken and deleted in Dragon Quest 3.

I had already burnt out on last Tuesday evening. That night, and on Wednesday and Tuesday I was always thinking that I had gotten over the climax of this week but there were a few days for me to go to work in this week. Finally in the end of the week I almost lost words to say and also I was so tired that it took a few hours before I begin play a video game.

It was just a bad encounter. I can forget it if I with. By forgetting it don't I lose my memory of my childhood? Even if I forget about classmates who bullied me and adults who turned cold eyes to me, I don't believe I'm going to forget the memories of adventures from when I was in the 2nd grade, looked for various descriptions of automobile tires, electric and gas meters, edible herbs and bugs. Besides that, even if wanted to really forget about everything on my childhood, some flashbacks would still remain like a scar on the skin of my head, which make me feel like screaming once in a while. Well, one thing I can say about my childhood is that trying to remember memories good for me certainly improve my productivity, by enriching the contents I can provide you with here. Choosing good encounters rather than bad encounters: This is getting a critical key word for me to tell you better things, by revising my past experiences.

I have to make the effort to give up my retaliations every day. On the other hands there are a few ways to retaliate without directly take an action once and for all. Besides, just telling what happened in the past carelessly in public can be taken as a form of retaliation to some degree. The times I have to give up retaliation so many that it takes a lot of self-control to do it.

"Probably tomorrow is gonna OK" I repeat to myself many times. I'm almost overwhelmed by stress of the beginning of this week. This is a bit hard time for me, especially until weekdays end tomorrow. Probably it's OK. I want to say again. And hopefully for you too.

In our areas, we hear news of tensions among countries these days. News about nuclear and missile experiments, military disciplines, and chemical weapons are frustrating me a lot. One good solution may be washing my hands from watching news, but from the business perspective, I can't totally stay away from news. I just wish leaders of those countries have the courage to make decisions from which they really think of their benefits and citizens of neighboring nations can sleep without worry of war.

Tohoku local is exotic through worldwide grass root media, blogs or social networking sites. I have been in Tohoku area, Japan since I was born so I haven't thought that scenes around me are exotic. However when I view blogs of everyday life of people in different countries, I find them exotic even though they just write about their everyday lives. When I write only about myself and my conditions, I'm losing chances of telling everyday life around me which may look exotic for worldwide readers. It's not easy to express daily lives around me in a foreign language, because of my limited proficiency and because vocabulary which can express things not familiar with people who speaks a certain language is not general. Still I can take photographs, upload and show them. I would like to try show photographs of everyday scenes just around me, which may be interesting for people from other places.