Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

I'm so far away from learning foreign languages, because I focus on web page creating until the middle of November. There's so big fear of defeat on me. I learned to make wireframes for website design. I'm choosing pictures. There are so many pictures on my PC that it takes very long time to even view a tenth of them.

In the beginning of this month I was planning to refurbish my blog. I was thinking of suitable subjects that my blog deals with. I just ended up in missing the habit of posting something every day. In the period I was away from here, I was busy and tired from preparing for Network Specialist exam, and even after the exam ended on last Sunday, I have still been worn out. Before I stop my blog update, I was reviewing my motivation for blogging. In the beginning right after 2009, I wanted and sought approval from outside, from other people. This sometime caused troubles in interaction with Japanese bloggers who deal with topics on autism spectrum disorder. At that time I didn't see authors' personalities at all and I was just thinking I could relate to them just because I had gone through similar hardships to theirs. I just imposed my experiences and my personality on their comment walls. 5 years later, I noticed that just imposing my own experiences without paying respect...

Sensan line is suspended today due to the sediment disaster from the heavy rain of the typhoon that passed our area early in the morning of yesterday. Seeing the picture of landslide on the railroad , I was surprised. Although there was no serious damage around my place, as for the railway, it looks like there were in some places on the track of railroads. Fortunately, today is the national holiday Sports Day and I don't have to go to work. I'm not sure I'm even more fortunate enough to take train to work for tomorrow. I hope the restoration work will have been done by tomorrow morning. Otherwise, I will take the bus, which is going to crowded both inside the car and the road.

I missed posting my blog yesterday because I was too anxious about the typhoon. Last night my area had a lot of rain I had never experienced ever before, like other areas in Japan, Kanto and Tohoku region. Fortunately for me, the typhoon is passing at last, and looks like infrastructures around our area is OK. Electricity and tap water is available, and probably gas is OK too.

If you don't begin to write something, you can't join forever. This is one important lesson I have learned from my 10-year blogging experience. If I didn't begin to write something, I wouldn't be writing here like this way. So far, this blog hasn't been grown as I initially dreamed about. However, continuing this blog and never quitting was quite a good start, reading someone else's entry saying that 90 percent of bloggers quit from writing. Even though 99.9 percent of my entries so far have been low quality. In order to grow my blog, first I need to improve quality of my posts. To achieve this, I want to write as much as possible, in attempt to find what I should focus on. I also need to read, read and read to learn style and word usages of writing which are appreciated highly. There are a lot of things to do and a long way left to grow my blog, but not forgetting the mind when I opened this blog (even though I began it rather lightheartedly) is also import...

This time of last year, September and October, 2018 , I was making a lot of Efforts. One, for Abilympics, I was making my best for creating a web site. In that year, I was especially focused on handling a database in PHP. Another was studying a lot of basics, apps, and commands of Linux, for preparation for LPIC Level 2 exams. For those two purposes, I was building a test server and encounter several troubles, mostly from security settings of initial condition right after installation. In order to accept Web, FTP, and file server traffic, you need to change iptable setting to permit these traffics, and you may also need to care for SELinux setting. I searched on the web, reached a temporary solution, and permitted target traffic from my local networks. It was quite a good training for managing a host and a website, useful for both goals I was striving for.

From 2002 to 2004 I learned French from 2002 to 2004. I was so shy that I only listened the classes and didn't participate in practice conversations among the teacher and classmates. I also went to open university to see learning friends, most of who were middle-aged or older, yet showed stronger will to learn than the young students of the university I actually belonged to. Open university had given us a chance to get back my joy of learning, having long been forgotten in those miserable, empty first 3 years, with the most serious panic and mental breakdown at university. I was still easily get panicked from trivial things, but I had gotten able to attend minimum classes and hand in reports in spite of my panics. The last two years in Sapporo I made much greater progresses than years before. Yet I also experienced a major defeat. I gave up my advancement to doctor's course. I couldn't achieve neither of them: 1. Pass a designated tests to be qualified for advancement 2...