"Survived" a meeting among colleagues
Making speech at a meeting as well as giving self introduction and attending job interviews has given me so much pressure that I sometimes became faint on the train home.
Today's session was no exception. Since all discussion went well and the meeting ended without causing me any panic, I thought I could go home without any trouble.
Finally I barely went back home safely, but on the train it was really difficult for me to keep standing sane, affected with the fatigue I couldn't feel when 20 minutes ago when I left the office.
All the struggle before and after today's meeting being that way, I still felt my progress in adjusting to an elementary business meeting. If job counselors who knows me on the job hunting 3 to 5 years ago knew today's episode, they would be surprised. They knew me who whenever I went to job interviews I went to wreck and on homeward commuter train I even fell on the floor from panic or hyperventilation. Today I barely stood on the train, even though I was restless, closing my eyes with my both hands on the strap, rocking my upper body to and fro, sometimes talking as if I was sleeping -about the greetings I might say in the office when we have guests.
If I take a goodnight sleep and tomorrow go to work as if nothing happened the day before, I'm really a little bit confident of the behavior in the situation like business meetings or self introductions which has made me worried.
Today's session was no exception. Since all discussion went well and the meeting ended without causing me any panic, I thought I could go home without any trouble.
Finally I barely went back home safely, but on the train it was really difficult for me to keep standing sane, affected with the fatigue I couldn't feel when 20 minutes ago when I left the office.
All the struggle before and after today's meeting being that way, I still felt my progress in adjusting to an elementary business meeting. If job counselors who knows me on the job hunting 3 to 5 years ago knew today's episode, they would be surprised. They knew me who whenever I went to job interviews I went to wreck and on homeward commuter train I even fell on the floor from panic or hyperventilation. Today I barely stood on the train, even though I was restless, closing my eyes with my both hands on the strap, rocking my upper body to and fro, sometimes talking as if I was sleeping -about the greetings I might say in the office when we have guests.
If I take a goodnight sleep and tomorrow go to work as if nothing happened the day before, I'm really a little bit confident of the behavior in the situation like business meetings or self introductions which has made me worried.
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