Age 33-34 (2009) (4) Shyness in my blog in the beginning
I opened my blogs in 2009. I began two blogs in much the same period, the fall of this year.
I had been thinking that I could have have some means to show my points of view, especially from the point of view from an adult in Japan on the autism spectrum and struggling with finding a job. The reason I had hesitated to begin a blog was simply because I'm extremely shy, I was so shy that it had taken as many as 15 minutes to say my name when my counselor asked when I first met with.
When I was about to open my Japanese blog, I had already had Yahoo! account, and there was an icon showing you can begin your blog with one click away.
I clicked it. I thought probably there was some confirmation procedures, so I didn't take it much seriously. Then, lo and behold, I saw a welcome message, "Congratulations! You've opened your blog successfully!"
I was surprised. I hadn't been much prepared. Seeing the initial post by the blog system, saying "I've just begun this blog. Please leave comment if you like to." I said to myself "Impossible!! I haven't prepared at all for a comment from someone else on the Internet. Besides, I'm not sure what to write. I even want to know how to undo the blog I've created by accident."
Anyway, I decided to write some post. My first job was to inform readers of how shy I was. Then I posted some article about learning English. Some kind people left a few comment to congratulate on the open of the blog. At that time, I also posted essays at the stage of rough draft, preparing for English tests, and attached with terrible speeches.
No matter how poor my writing and speech might be, I believed then that continuing output is the key to growth.
Now I post my blog articles daily with the same motivation. Perhaps the will to show my points of view then was much stronger than I am now, but in spite I know I've lost much of my will to communicate my points of view, I'm positive that persistence has been much strengthened, by continuing writing anything in my mind anyway even a smallest thing.
I had been thinking that I could have have some means to show my points of view, especially from the point of view from an adult in Japan on the autism spectrum and struggling with finding a job. The reason I had hesitated to begin a blog was simply because I'm extremely shy, I was so shy that it had taken as many as 15 minutes to say my name when my counselor asked when I first met with.
When I was about to open my Japanese blog, I had already had Yahoo! account, and there was an icon showing you can begin your blog with one click away.
I clicked it. I thought probably there was some confirmation procedures, so I didn't take it much seriously. Then, lo and behold, I saw a welcome message, "Congratulations! You've opened your blog successfully!"
I was surprised. I hadn't been much prepared. Seeing the initial post by the blog system, saying "I've just begun this blog. Please leave comment if you like to." I said to myself "Impossible!! I haven't prepared at all for a comment from someone else on the Internet. Besides, I'm not sure what to write. I even want to know how to undo the blog I've created by accident."
Anyway, I decided to write some post. My first job was to inform readers of how shy I was. Then I posted some article about learning English. Some kind people left a few comment to congratulate on the open of the blog. At that time, I also posted essays at the stage of rough draft, preparing for English tests, and attached with terrible speeches.
No matter how poor my writing and speech might be, I believed then that continuing output is the key to growth.
Now I post my blog articles daily with the same motivation. Perhaps the will to show my points of view then was much stronger than I am now, but in spite I know I've lost much of my will to communicate my points of view, I'm positive that persistence has been much strengthened, by continuing writing anything in my mind anyway even a smallest thing.
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