My first ski in this season: "Although probably I like skiing, ......"

I went skiing for the first time in this 2014-2015 season.

I participated in training sessions for skiing instructors. I participated in it because it was kind of compulsive. If it had not been compulsive, I wouldn't go skiing in this weekend.

After I safely finished my first few runs, I thought to my self, "I still kind of like skiing, but these days, regretfully, I don't have enough mental capacity to recover from tiredness from work and my daily life and make time for skiing."

Once I'm in the situation where I am to ski, certainly I find that I kind of like skiing, but now I hesitate to say "I make every effort to make time for skiing, coping with my daily stresses."

On the other hand I can confidently say "I make every effort to cope with my daily stress and continue to work."

Skiing is still one of my hobbies, but it's something I might choose to drop if I want to make a progress in my work.

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