The best reader/audience is myself, I think this several times a year

I've just noticed that I've seldom read back my posts in this blog, the only English edition of my blogs. I guess I probably hate to know statistics of the blog would show that the best reader/audience of my blog could be myself. Isn't this sound much lonely?

On the other hand, in my Japanese blogs, one for my personal blog, and one for my workplace, I often feel that the person who wants to read my posts I guess is myself.

Here's an episode to show this. A few years ago I wrote a post about TOEIC, a popular English test in Japan. There I wondered why on the Internet I hardly see articles of this English test and mentally or intellectually challenged (young-adult) people.

(Personally I think foreign-language tests include some ingredient of intellectual tests)

Some month later, the same question aroused in my mind and searched for the internet.
The first page I saw was my blog post I had written beforehand.

I've experienced similar results with some other curiosities and Internet searches based on them.
Through these experiences, I've noticed that what I want to tell in blog posts can also be what I want to read on the Internet.

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