Pain-like feelings which make me prone to cry out loud

When being taught a lesson at work, (and in the past at school and at home) I feel so much pain that I almost cry out loud.
I feel a sharp feeling like a pain then, but I can't describe where I have such a pain.
In elementary school when I cried out loud, some teachers and some classmates said that I cried out loud I wanted to draw attention. Even I myself had believed that I wanted to draw attention because many people around me said so. To be sure, for a few time I did really wanted to draw attention, but in most cases, I wanted to cry out loud because I felt such a sharp feeling like a pain, I feel when I make a mistake and am taught a lesson, but I can't explain where is my pain and whether it's really pain. Today on the train back home, I felt such an acute feeling, it wasn't nowhere in my body, and even not in my heart either, and if I have to tell where is the nearest, I felt such a pain 2 to 3 meters off in front of my eyes, obviously not a part of my body. This is probably one strange feeling like pain which make me prone to cry out loud.
I have been lived with such sharp and somehow a little bit painful feeling since I was in elementary school. And it wasn't until this year that I noticed that this somehow painful feeling is another thing than a desire to draw someone's attention, which I hadn't really felt so frequently.

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