This morning, on the train, 510

This morning on the train, I was so uneasy that I spontaneously draw ......
At first I didn't intend to, but the sketch became like Nissan Bluebird 510 (around 1970).
I didn't see a photo while drawing. I have seldom seen this in real life even in my childhood.
My father had Bluebird 910, 1980 model and I knew Bluebird 510 by an article like "its clean horizontal exterior is the second coming of model 510."

Last year suddenly I was into movies of TV ads of cars of 1960-70s, especially of Nissan.
I liked to see videos of C10 Skyline and 510 Bluebird and many other models born several years earlier than I was born, and for some reason, I was so into them, the exterior of those cars were deeply into my mind, although when I was a child I would have thought that those cars were just another old cars.

The cars I like varies in my ages, for example I liked Honda in 1990s when I was in high school, and I liked Subaru in 2000s when I was in university, but whenever I felt nervous or uneasy, I was drawing some cars. If I can line up my sketches of cars by year, I would be able to tell what I was seeing and feeling at that time. I have liked to draw pictures of cars throughout my life, but the point I see and I like also varies by year.

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