My communication largely depend on helps

Are you OK?
I heard a voice from English teacher.
It happened when I was at English conversation class of university.
Students made pairs to practice conversations.
In that pair session, I was frozen. I lost my voice and I limped, even collapsed.
I had already known more than 3,000 English word through preparation for entrance exams, however I was at a loss what to do when it comes to speak with someone else.
At that time, around the year 1995, I hadn't realized that I managed to make conversation with my fellow students because I was helped by them with communication.
It was no wonder that I can't make a conversation even though I know relatively large vocabulary because I couldn't expect on substantial help, because the student I was supposed to talk didn't go so far as to know how to help a person in a foreign language.

It was not until almost 20 years later then that whether I can communicate greatly depend on assistance from people I talk to, not only in English, but also in Japanese.

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