No title - One typical distress in a worship service

My tears and sighs when I can't help feeling when I'm feeling myself out of place.
I'm obviously out of these families, even though church is one family in a sense.
This perhaps may be a sense that I haven't really been the great family of church.
Anyway, it really happened me that I couldn't help feel I'm out of place in this time and situation of parents and children.
I may be wrong when I feel that way and I even feel my heart is being town from the left and from the right.
I smiled instead.
I grinned and glared at the kids when they are trespassing because they probably need discipline, although I would more like to having fun together with this.
This is in the middle of worship service.
A worship service is one of the places I often get wrecked.
Sometimes I don't understand simple word, and not able to sit still for a long time, especially on Sunday, when I have already been a nervous wreck to relax from weekdays stress I have to endure on the trains and in the city.
Prayer and reading the Bible on regular basis, even far behind schedule because of sharp decline of my capability from stress, they are practically the only ways to help me out.

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