What I thought on Sunday, alone but not miserable
It will be fine if I won't catch a cold.
I felt sad when I talked scarcely and only saw people speaking today at church, but I was capable of walk and jog in order to eat out. I ate miso ramen at a Sapporo ramen shop, taking a bus after the service ended.
In the bus, I was thinking the I have to thank the members and city staff for contribution, supporting, and setting for the associations.
My standpoint is that I'm not sure if I'm really on autism spectrum although I visit a mental clinic for medication, being said that I'm a bit like autism. From what mental specialists have said about myself, my distresses I have experienced in school and job hunting is probably from my "autistic" trait. I probably have repeatedly stated here on this blog, and this is I have had in mind throughout my 30s and at the beginning of my 40s.
What has changed in my thoughts is that I have come to think that I have been understood, even though there are only a few people I'm capable of conversation with. I can enjoy a few conversations for a few minutes, but I'm more likely to enjoy the pursuits of memories of shapes of persons, many kinds of animals, cars, flowers, and buildings, and to enjoy sinking myself deeply into thinking. I also enjoying moving my body, although I perform terribly at team sports. Skiing is perfect much, budgets permitting, for my need to move my body, because I move my body all by myself and then meditate the results of the interactions with snow and slopes, and ski again.
I'm learning to be a little bit social more. I will keep on socialized throughout my life, even though all I can reach is only a low level of social interactions. Also by pursuing my curiosity and knowledge will bring me more fruitful life. Probably my work will be that I will explain the fruits of what I will have pursued of socialization and curiosities.
I felt sad when I talked scarcely and only saw people speaking today at church, but I was capable of walk and jog in order to eat out. I ate miso ramen at a Sapporo ramen shop, taking a bus after the service ended.
In the bus, I was thinking the I have to thank the members and city staff for contribution, supporting, and setting for the associations.
My standpoint is that I'm not sure if I'm really on autism spectrum although I visit a mental clinic for medication, being said that I'm a bit like autism. From what mental specialists have said about myself, my distresses I have experienced in school and job hunting is probably from my "autistic" trait. I probably have repeatedly stated here on this blog, and this is I have had in mind throughout my 30s and at the beginning of my 40s.
What has changed in my thoughts is that I have come to think that I have been understood, even though there are only a few people I'm capable of conversation with. I can enjoy a few conversations for a few minutes, but I'm more likely to enjoy the pursuits of memories of shapes of persons, many kinds of animals, cars, flowers, and buildings, and to enjoy sinking myself deeply into thinking. I also enjoying moving my body, although I perform terribly at team sports. Skiing is perfect much, budgets permitting, for my need to move my body, because I move my body all by myself and then meditate the results of the interactions with snow and slopes, and ski again.
I'm learning to be a little bit social more. I will keep on socialized throughout my life, even though all I can reach is only a low level of social interactions. Also by pursuing my curiosity and knowledge will bring me more fruitful life. Probably my work will be that I will explain the fruits of what I will have pursued of socialization and curiosities.
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