"Please don't talk to me" to be honest sometime

To be honest I sometime have a feeling "Please don't talk to me, please don't give a response or a reaction.", while I write some ideas.

Successful people, it seems to me, have a lot of interaction with wide range of people, and give positive effects on them, so I hope to strengthen my capacity of interaction.

I'm often frustrated with my low capacity to handle interaction and the fact that my mind is easy to break with a few unexpected things and a few unsympathetic remarks.

Now my mind is on the way of recovering, and hardly able to communicate a powerful idea. This is making me unimportant, and I even feel that I have the mentality to draw myself to an unimportant position.

Well, the next step is quitting being so nervous about other people's ideas because it is impossible to directly control them, while, although it is not easy, it is my thought that I'm able to directly control.

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