2017 was the year I made small but steady progresses. I acquired several entry level certificates of information technologies and business etiquette.

Also I felt much better in this year than in the past 2-3 years. There were much less chances to spill or fail to measure hot water, when I drip coffee. On the other hand I have gotten a bit weaker in outside noises. There were a little more chances than the last years to use earplugs when I sing worship songs. I also doesn't try to hide the nature that I'm prone to jump up and down when I was uneasy at a worship service, but I took a few minutes of timeout and went out to the hall, and wait until I feel much calmer.

I will go on in 2018, the coming year, piling up small efforts and I hope I will be able to report substantial progresses.

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