Do I really want to participate in the event if it is realized?

A few members of the group of adults with developmental disorders are planning to a talk event for the end of the May.
At first I was ready to help them organize the event, but now, I'm thinking this is too much burden for me.
First reason is, although my mental state these days is relatively stable, I don't think my mind can stand extra loads about the event on weekends, in addition to of my daily work.
Second, I myself would turn down participating this kind of event, if I were asked to participate as a participant.
For years of activities with adults with developmental disorders, I have found that I myself don't like so much talk events, while some members are enthusiastic about them.
10 years ago I was also eager to such events, because I was able to use energy for them, out of work. Now I have come to think that talking about myself, especially topics about awareness, take a lot of energy, and can affect my work, now that I have a job. In addition to that I have had the habit of forgiving past experiences, which may interrupt ideas that contribute to awareness.

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