Maitta! Always - Daily Amazing Confusions -

Since I began to work at my current workplace, the opportunity I have canned coffees has been much increased ever before. I have canned coffees once or twice a day at work. I like to have it because they are convenient and some of them have much improved in their taste and aroma. I liked to have home-dripped coffee on weekends, but one day I noticed that it can't beat the aromas of these canned coffees. Their regular prices were 120 yen but fortunately in some vending machines they are available at a discount price of 100 yen. I can find such vending machines in the neighborhood of my house and my office building. Meanwhile, most public places like railroad stations, canned coffees tend to be regular prices. Moreover, along with the consumption tax hike this April, the price of mainstream canned coffees has been raised to 130 yen from 120. This has made me choose not to buy can coffees in public places, unless I feel really strong desire for a cup of coffee. A 100-yen can...

Today is the holiday, Day of Showa. It's the beginning of holidays called "Golden Week". I will have to work from tomorrow through this Friday, then I'll have four consecutive days off. I spent this holiday mainly playing a video game titled "Ar nosurge" I bought the game last Saturday. I wanted to play this game because my favorite singers participated in it. Its story and music is great, and I also like many small features that make me burst into laughing.

These days my blog posts were just records of daily matters and thoughts, and not providing with any point of view. I hoped on the new years day to show something unique in my blog, but I'm thinking that posting every day is higher priority this year. According to this theme, I don't care much if I failed to provide readers with a unique point of view in my every-day blog post. This may be self-satisfaction, but still, keeping on posting will certainly give me confidence. I just hope to make my daily life unique and more interesting to you. "What action to take to achieve this goal" is something I've missed until this year. Probably I need to work out brushing up my vocabulary to fully describe my life.

I haven't gone skiing with club members yet this season. I have missed all practice sessions of the ski club I belong to. This season is coming to an end soon. It's already been about a month since the ski area I regularly go was closed. We can still ski in the higher area, and it's still within 2-hour ride from my place. My mental and physical condition prevented me from participating in any activities related to skiing, apart from I go to skiing alone for a change of air. Considering my need to have full rest avoiding stress when I'm off to recover from overwhelming fatigue (my work is not specially hard, and it's probably the problem of my perception), I can't just afford to participate in extra activities related to skiing, much less taking a role of an instructor or contributing to organizations of skiing.

When someone is in a bad mood at work, I tend to wonder if I've done something wrong. The other day I realized that it is a mistake to take things too personal, and to think that someone is in a bad mood because I've done something wrong. I also looked for an advice on the Internet, and a site which provides with psychological advices says it is even arrogant to think in that way. This tendency of thinking may not change at once, and it may be too tough to overcome by myself, but I'd like to change the way of thinking with help of my doctor, and counselor.

In yesterday's counseling I talked about my hobbies. I talked about music and games I like. It was a little bit difficult to explain. I also felt it a little bit embarrassing to expressing them. I also talked about my situation in my workplace. I talked about human relationships at work. I talked about my physical and mental state. I talked about how I typically feel and behave at work and in my private time. I talked about the declining desire to seek more in my hobbies. For example I don't feel like go skiing so much as years ago. I'd rather like to spend weekend sit and relax home, or spend time weekend walking around my neighborhoods observing the scenes happening just another days. I'd also like to see flowers of weeds roadsides nearby, with my digital camera. My working environment may not be tough comparing to typical ones. On the contrary, it's thanks to the understanding working environment that I'm positive to fight with challenges, lik...

This evening I had a counseling about my work life and private life with my disorder, with a setting at a Starbucks shop after work. I ordered there a short cup of decaf drip coffee. I also bought 12 sticks of VIA coffee essence for home. When I paid the price, the burden of consumption tax hike came home to me. So far since the consumption tax hike in this April, when I had something to buy such as coffee I chose an option whose payment was the same as before the hike, or chose cheaper option. But when the stock of my VIA ran out, I had no choice but pay the new price, higher with the hiked 8 percent tax rate.