Counseling last evening

In yesterday's counseling I talked about my hobbies.

I talked about music and games I like.
It was a little bit difficult to explain.
I also felt it a little bit embarrassing to expressing them.

I also talked about my situation in my workplace.
I talked about human relationships at work.
I talked about my physical and mental state.
I talked about how I typically feel and behave at work and in my private time.
I talked about the declining desire to seek more in my hobbies.
For example I don't feel like go skiing so much as years ago.
I'd rather like to spend weekend sit and relax home, or spend time weekend walking around my neighborhoods observing the scenes happening just another days.
I'd also like to see flowers of weeds roadsides nearby, with my digital camera.

My working environment may not be tough comparing to typical ones.
On the contrary, it's thanks to the understanding working environment that I'm positive to fight with challenges, like greeting with hospitality or, answering phones for the office.
The fact is that I'm barely up to manage some basic business skills for the time a day a few hours shorter than average office workers.

If I gave up my work because there is more time to do things I'm not good at than the time to do things I think I'm good at, I would not achieve anything at my current job.

I have no choice to continue for the time of being, and it takes a lot of hard work even to realize even this small decision.
I need to control myself not to let myself give in to the stress I create from anxiety, over the stress I originally have to bear, and try not to bear all by myself if I can't.