Autmatic skiing preparation under depression

I'm glad that I've finished the work for this week without much trouble.
Although my work load has been less than last week, my mental state hasn't gone up much.
I'm too worried about small dysfunctions in communications at work with my co-workers.
Now on Friday evening I feel much weariness and anxiety in spite people cooperating with me are basically nice to me.
Due to this mental and physical tiredness, I'm still not sure I'm going to skiing. Skiing may be a good change of air, but I may be too tired to enjoy and afraid that I might be tired even more on Monday morning.
Having said that, I'm processing things necessary for going skiing. Removing wax of my skis, preparing cash and passes in appropriate places and so on.
I may be going if I'm able to wake up early, feel much better, and not harsh weather like snowstorm, rain or strong wind.

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