A make-believe meeting about primitive role playing game programing

I'm Maitta. I have liked to play computer role playing games for over 25 years. I also wanted to be a game creator when I first played "Dragon Quest" on Famicom. When I went to elementary school most of my notebooks are filled with "My original" "Super Mario Bros. courses" or "Dragon Quest maps"which then I thought were cool. This experience also made me interested in computer programming. Now I'm working for a information technology related company, and I feel lack of several qualities to manage the simplest project, a simpler game than I played nearly 30 years ago. I hope to make a simple program to move a simple character on a single world map by the end of this year. I feel as if I was working out re-inventing the square wheel, or even worse thing, but still I'm sure that by working out this I'll able to learn some important point to complete a simple project.

I'm Hiro. I was temporarily created by Maitta in his hope to create a simple game in which a simple character move all over the field. I was created with auto shapes on Microsoft Excel. He created me because a famous game creator advised him that you can make the essence of the game with simple characters like circles, and you don't have to waste your time in drawing a beautiful character in early developing stage. I'm not sure till when I'm allowed to present at this blog. This may be last time, that is likely to happen considering his characteristic and mental health state. It looks like he is holding make-believe meetings to discuss this project hoping to make it clear what is needed to achieve his goal. He also looks like he's hoping to get hang of managing meetings, for he looks like that he's been really struggling with meetings with his co-workers because he was worried about something strange may be decided in the meetings in spite he resists. He is imagining in this make-believe meeting that he makes meeting agendas, make discussions, and keep records, and set goals, which looks to me like lacking focus.
The fact that a character like me has been created was a strange enough thing and is it the thing he has been afraid of?

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