Can't mentally afford to participating in ski club activities

I haven't gone skiing with club members yet this season.

I have missed all practice sessions of the ski club I belong to.

This season is coming to an end soon.

It's already been about a month since the ski area I regularly go was closed.

We can still ski in the higher area, and it's still within 2-hour ride from my place.

My mental and physical condition prevented me from participating in any activities related to skiing, apart from I go to skiing alone for a change of air.

Considering my need to have full rest avoiding stress when I'm off to recover from overwhelming fatigue (my work is not specially hard, and it's probably the problem of my perception), I can't just afford to participate in extra activities related to skiing, much less taking a role of an instructor or contributing to organizations of skiing.

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